Day 159

Hello sayang !

I just came back from rumah Nyai I .

Right now it's 12:11 .

My father da tak boleh bawak balik van dari kerja lagi .

So we took the bus just now .

My family is buying a car soon .

And I tak sabar nak dapat license I !!!

Since I failed my BTT , I terus give up .

But no , I'm going to renew it and go for the BTT again !

I want to drive a car by next year . Can't wait !

Sayangku , I know you love me .

I know you will be with me forever .

You say all of that a lot of times .

But do you actually meant what you have been saying ?

And if you really do , why did you lie sayang ?

I'm sorry for making you feel bad .

I'm sorry for making you think too much inside .

But don't worry , my heart will always belong to you no matter what happen .

I am just still confuse about you . I'm just afraid after all this , you are going to leave me .

Sayang , many people have said that whatever we say is a doa .

When you were with me , you kept on asking me :

"You , what if I masuk setahun ?"

See what happen ? It really do come true .

Instead of that why don't you ask me something like :

"You , will you marry me ?" Or

"You , do you want to build a bright future together ?" Or

"You , JOM ?"

I don't mind if every one of them come true .

But not about you going in for a year .

So stop saying something ridiculous .

Sayang , don't leave me alone like this again please ?

Every day I try my best to survive .

It's difficult without you .

I miss you too much sayang .

I'll see you in 5 days ! (:

I CINTAKAN YOU .