Day 148

I just came back home from school sayang .
Kan I bilang you tadi yang I end school at 8 .
Penat to the max .

Okay , let me ingat balik what we talked about .
You wished me our anniversary ! You remembered .
That was what I expected , and you did !
I'm really sorry about drinking .
I am truly sorry . I won't do that again okay sayang ?
I will not do that ever again . I am so sorry .

I like the part where you were talking about your routine in prison .
But then when I asked you what will your routine be when you are out , you said :

"Routine semua sama tapi breakfast I lain sikit la ."

I can never get that thing off my mind .
It was stuck in my head for the whole day while I was in school .
I asyik senyum sendiri je tau !

About Ahn , don't worry okay ? I didn't continue talking to him .
He didn't even call me after that day .
So sayang no need to worry about me being with another guy .

Thanks sayang for letting me go Cambodia .
I need you to doa2kan I yang I akan selamat kat sana .
I never been away from Singapore alone before .
And lagi2 you kat dalam .
I will be extra far from you .

Sayang , I don't know how I would react if you were to appear infront of my house one day .
I will definitely hug you so tightly and never let you go .
You will be drench in my tears of happiness .
I can't wait for that day sayang . I want that day to come as soon as possible .
Don't be inside for a year . Please behave sayang .

Sayang , when I say , "I Love You" I really mean it .
I mean every single word of it .
And I hope you do too .

And about Angy , I'm sorry to say this .
But I just have a feeling that you have something more to say about her .
You are hiding something and I could sense it .
We've been together for at least 2 and half year during the time you knew her .
And you are telling me that when you were drunk , you asked a girl to be your girlfriend ?
So , what I'm thinking is that you weren't thinking about me when you were drunk .
Thanks eh . Thanks for telling me that .
So whatever you said about you always think about me even when you are drunk is a lie .
Anymore lies you wanna tell me ?
And yes , I am quite pissed off actually .
But this is stupid .
It was like 3 years ago and I'm dwelling on it like as if you are dating her recently .
Whatever la .
Cuma Allah je yang tahu ape you uat belakang I .

I cuma minta you jujur dengan I je .
That is all . And I don't know why but it seems so hard for you to do that simple thing .
I told you everything already sayang .
About Ahn , about drinking .
I didn't keep anything from you .

Only Allah knows how I feel right now .
The love of my life keeps many things from me for 5 years .
Tell me how you feel if I do the same .

"Love is NOT a word . It is a feeling . So say it ONLY when you feel it ."

I LOVE YOU .
I REALLY DO .

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