Day 132
Sayang , every single time I want to write a letter for you ,
there will be this strange feeling and I would feel like crying .
Today is the end of 19 weeks without you .
It's 132 days without you already .
Today I went out with family sayang .
Biasalah , it's Sunday sayang .
We went to eat at Swensens and beli groceries .
Then at Denizen and offer .
Hehe . My mum blanja I one jeans .
Lawa lak tuuu . And I got a new Jay Gee card .
Sayang ingat how we say "Jay Gee" tak ?
Hehe . Rindu la sayang je gila2 tu semua .
Sayang , lately I've been thinking about kahwin .
I don't really know why .
Maybe because I've been reading your messages talking about marriage .
Sayang , did you remember 25th March 2009 ?
The day you said you want to marry me .
You said this on the phone :
If you tak percaye tuh you nye pasal la . But in my MARRIAGE LIST , you are the FIRST !
Ingat tak you kate tu semua ? You even asked me whether I would marry you or not .
I was 16 years old sayang . And you were 21 .
I was shocked when you asked me that .
But yes , I want you to be all mine , no one else's .
And believe it or not , I still do .
After 5 years of being through a lot with each other , I still want you .
I tak pernah sekali jelak dengan you .
Because , like I said many times , whenever I see you , I fall in love with you all over again .
I feel like running towards you and hug you tight again .
I really miss your touch sayang .
Just wanna show you one message you sent me :
But I can only say this much sayang .
I want that Hilman that change for me .
That is all I need . But you never show me .
Not even now . Should I believe that you will change ?
I love you too , I need you too .
But if all you did was promise and never do a thing ,
I rather you just don't say and give me false hopes .
I miss our late night calls every night .
So that is why I type all this at night . It feels like I'm talking to you too .
Tell me what did you think about every night in that cell .
I'm curious sayang . Let me know okay ?
Tomorrow I'm going to see my dentist at Tan Tock Seng .
Takut la sayang . Mesti sakit tauuu !
I rasa bila next time I visit you , gigi I mesti bogey !
Because they are going to extract some of my teeth out .
Malunyeee !
Hopefully I'm strong tomorrow .
Last but not least , ingat tau to tell me who Angy is .
Just tell me the truth sayang .
Limit2 pun I terajang you je la . Hehe (:
Tak la sayang . Just tell me je kay ? Please ?
Love you SO MUCH sayang !
there will be this strange feeling and I would feel like crying .
Today is the end of 19 weeks without you .
It's 132 days without you already .
Today I went out with family sayang .
Biasalah , it's Sunday sayang .
We went to eat at Swensens and beli groceries .
Then at Denizen and offer .
Hehe . My mum blanja I one jeans .
Lawa lak tuuu . And I got a new Jay Gee card .
Sayang ingat how we say "Jay Gee" tak ?
Hehe . Rindu la sayang je gila2 tu semua .
Sayang , lately I've been thinking about kahwin .
I don't really know why .
Maybe because I've been reading your messages talking about marriage .
Sayang , did you remember 25th March 2009 ?
The day you said you want to marry me .
You said this on the phone :
If you tak percaye tuh you nye pasal la . But in my MARRIAGE LIST , you are the FIRST !
Ingat tak you kate tu semua ? You even asked me whether I would marry you or not .
I was 16 years old sayang . And you were 21 .
I was shocked when you asked me that .
But yes , I want you to be all mine , no one else's .
And believe it or not , I still do .
After 5 years of being through a lot with each other , I still want you .
I tak pernah sekali jelak dengan you .
Because , like I said many times , whenever I see you , I fall in love with you all over again .
I feel like running towards you and hug you tight again .
I really miss your touch sayang .
Just wanna show you one message you sent me :
September 15 2010
I tknk naik cable car..i takot pasal mimpi i tadi..i tknk kehilangan org yg i sngt syg..i nk kahwin ngn u..i tknk u kahwin ngn lain org..i tknk..i takot kehilangan u..i btol2 takot..i menyesal slama ni ape i uat..i tknk lukakan ati u lagi..i syg u..i btol2 da berubah..i tknk u pegi dari idop i..i tkle..u,i sygkn u..i feel like crying..jgn tinggalkan i..jgn benci i..jgn dendam i..i sanggup uat pape untuk u..aslkan jgn minta breakup lagi..i tknk..Marah la i kalau i uat salah..tapi jgn benci i and jgn tinggalkan i..jgn cinta org lain..jgn tk angkat kol i..jgn tk reply msg i..kasi i peluang yg terakhir untuk i buktikn cinta i kali ni..i beg u..i cintakn u..u,i syg u..i cintakn u..u,i syg u..percayalah i..i bukan sweet talking atau ada ape2 niat buruk kat u..i ikhlas cintakan u..Sumpah i tk cinta pompan lain,ingtkn pompan lain atau ada hati kt pompan lain..hati i slalu ingatkn u dan ingin bersama u seumur hidup i..i cuma nk dgn u..bkn org lain..I have a million and one things to say to you about that message .
But I can only say this much sayang .
I want that Hilman that change for me .
That is all I need . But you never show me .
Not even now . Should I believe that you will change ?
I love you too , I need you too .
But if all you did was promise and never do a thing ,
I rather you just don't say and give me false hopes .
I miss our late night calls every night .
So that is why I type all this at night . It feels like I'm talking to you too .
Tell me what did you think about every night in that cell .
I'm curious sayang . Let me know okay ?
Tomorrow I'm going to see my dentist at Tan Tock Seng .
Takut la sayang . Mesti sakit tauuu !
I rasa bila next time I visit you , gigi I mesti bogey !
Because they are going to extract some of my teeth out .
Malunyeee !
Hopefully I'm strong tomorrow .
Last but not least , ingat tau to tell me who Angy is .
Just tell me the truth sayang .
Limit2 pun I terajang you je la . Hehe (:
Tak la sayang . Just tell me je kay ? Please ?
Love you SO MUCH sayang !
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