Day 177 (Seventh letter)

Sayang , I received your letter just now .
And I must say that when I read that letter , I never thought that was you .
Your English in that letter was REALLY GOOD !
I mean REALLY . I never seen you write THAT GOOD .
It's not perfect but it's GOOD . Haha !
I guess it is time for me to reply to you .

I sihat walafiat sayang . Sayang lemah sebab puasa ? Haha ! Cute la sayang . Alhamdulillah sayang puasa . Make sure full tau sayang ! Memang I selalu type surat malam2 . Since I takle bobal2 dengan you malam2 like we used to , I type la malam2 . In a way I am talking to you too . You got a little hurt when I asked you , "What if you were to betray me once again , what should I do sayang ?" Why were you hurt sayang ? It is just a question . You want me to think ahead . I've been thinking ahead when I was with you . But you had been living in the past . The past that I really hate ! You went back to your old life . How can I think ahead ? My thoughts of the future was not the thoughts of you being in jail . But you end up in there still . You want me to think ahead ? You know I love you , you know I want you as my husband . I maafkan you sincerely . I'm sorry but that is all I think about these days . I myself can't think straight . Do you know why I've been studying till wee hours ? It's because nothing can ever enter my head ! I think about you too much . And I know your life in there is really bad . I'm sorry . I really am . Should I just stop giving you letters ? Tapi nanti I nak mengadu kat siapa kalau I have problem ? I share everything with you . My thoughts , my life , my everything . Okay , I'll stop ! I'll stop writing all those stupid past . I know you're angry . Stop pretending you are not . I just really hope you will really change . About that guy , I never chat with him after that chat . It is your choice to believe it or not .

The clock just strike 12 and I'm crying .
HAPPY 5 YEARS 3 MONTHS SAYANG .

I guess I have nothing more to say . And yes , that letter hurts me .
It's okay . I forgive you .
Will try my best to sleep tonight .
Bye .