Day 167

Right now it's just after maghrib .
Sayang , I'm crying right now .
Not because of you but because of my parents .
We went out just now , and I wore a simple dress .
My dad suddenly get so bising and said that I was overdressed .
Diroang selalu kate kalau boleh , pakai baju yang da gantung .
Baju tu I da pakai untuk sekolah , so I wore it again today .
I terus tak bebual dengan my dad .

Then just now , I gaduh dengan my brother .
He said I tu lah ni la . Then I just said , "Diam ah bodoh ."
My mum stepped in and marah I just because of the "bodoh" word .
Which actually the starting of our quarrel was his fault .

I don't know why everyone is trying to get me today .
Ape I uat salah sey you ?
And everytime when this happens , I just wish I can just run to you .
But I know I can't . So all I did was cry silently in my room .
I wish you were right here with me to erase all my problems away .
But nothing I do can bring you back here right now .

I sometime feel like I don't really belong to this family .
I was with my auntie since the day I was born for 8 months .
They can't blame me for being so much like my auntie kan ?

Please please please . I need you .
Please don't ever leave me like this ever again .
You are all I need .

I'll see you in 2 days sayang .
Just two more days .
I can't wait to see you !
Oh , my birthday is in 8 days sayang .
I tak dapat ape2 ke ? Hehe (:

I CINTAKAN YOU .