Day 58

Sayang , I just finished watching a movie "The Vow" from the computer .
The movie is about a couple who had an accident and the wife totally forget her memory .
And the husband trying his best to regain her memory back .
Because all he wants is their moments that they had together .

What if one day I had an accident and forgot all about you ,
And you are not here to regain my memory back ?
Then all our love that we had together will just be your memory and not mine ?
What would you do when you get to know this ?
Imagine if you are the one that I've been thinking about all my life ,
and then just one unfaithful day , they were all gone .
Will you be there for me after you are out from jail ?

Sayang , I'm trying my best to live without you .
But it is really killing me .
I never stop thinking about you .
I never stop reading everything about us .
I never stop looking at your photos .
I NEED YOU .
You are my soul , my life , my EVERYTHING !
How can I live happily without you by my side ?

I've been in love with you since 16 MAY 2007 .
I've been in love with you since you said you love me so much .
I've been in love with you since you sang for me "Bila Kau Kata Kau Sayang"
I've been in love with you since we made love .
I've been in love with you since you change .
I've been in love with you since you cried for me .
I've been in love with you since you ran after me until I accept your apology .
I've been in love with you since you hugged me and said you're sorry .
And I'm still in love with you right now when you're in jail .

But I always wonder why must you cheat on me ?
Why must you lie to me ?
Why must you hurt me ?
All I did for you is try to change you to a better person .

I guess I'll be crying tonight .
Goodbye sayang .