Day 48

Seeing you tomorrow sayang !
Another week is ending .
Total , I've been 7 weeks without you .
My body go numb whenever I think about it .

Maybe all of this happens for many reasons .
First is for you to realise all your mistakes that you did .
Second is to let me become much stronger everyday without you .
And third is maybe to show us that we are never meant to be .

I don't like the third one .
I've been loving you since we start showing love to each other .
I've been loving you from the start .
But every single day you hurt me and you never stop hurting me .
You lie to me .
You cheat on me with some other girls .
You never listen to me .
Everything that I say was true .
You have been lying to me all this while .
You hurt me whom you said that will be your wife in the future .
When you are married to me , will you hurt me too ?

But sayang , I'm still loving you .
And I will never stop loving you .
Why sayang ? Why I'm still loving you after all you did to me ?
My love for you is still very strong .
I love you sayang . I really do love you .

If you love me , show me sayang .
Prove to me that you are going to be a good husband .
Because for all I know . I can never love anyone ever again .
You are mine . And forever will be .
Even if you choose another , my true love will still be you .