Day 50

Sayang , da 50 hari without you sayang .
Tak sangka I masih hidup .
It's killing me without you here sayang .
It's true .

Semalam I nangis sampai tadi pagi I bangun , mata I tembel rabak sey you .
And I bangun pagi2 gila je I terus uat bising .
Aqilah kencing kat katil I !
Pagi2 da nak kene uat keje .
Sayang , semenjak you masuk , I asyik cuba nak uat diri I busy .
I tak kesah apa I buat . I cuba nak elakkan diri I asyik nangis pasal you .
Pikirkan you selalu uat I just termenung and do nothing .

Sayang nak tahu tak nari satu hari I macam babs kat rumah tau .
Bangun , tidur , makan , main game . Tu je .
See how is my life without you ? Really EMPTY .
This is what you call empty sayang .
I masih simpan semua message2 you and you asyik kate hidup you tanpa I empty .
Tapi bila I takde dengan you , ape you uat ? You uat benda tu semua .
Itu ke you kate empty ? Hidup you tanpa I lagi happening kan sayang ?

Sayang when I said that I takle hidup tanpa you , I betul2 tak boleh hidup tanpa you .
Seriously it's really quiet since you were gone .
Everyday I cry . Everyday I just stare into blank space . Everyday I look at your photos .
What can I do sayang ?
You are the man that I love so much . I can never be happy without you .
I would smile and laugh every now and then ,
but it is not as happy as the days when I was with you .

Five more days to our anniversary sayang .
Who am I going to celebrate with ?
I need you .

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