♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

I am so weak right now sayang . I just woke up . My family just came back home from my uncle's house . I was too weak to even to there . I'm having a slight fever right now . AND GUESS WHAT ?! I angkat bola cikgu I today ! HAHAHAHA ! I pretend to be a goody two shoes with her . I seriously succeeded ! xD I got my 5 skills signed by her . YAY ! Sayang , I've been talking a lot about my life . Sayang , what about yours ? How are you sayang ? Are you sick ? How is your everyday life ? Are you still thinking about me everyday ? Are you still angry about what I've been doing ? I'm going to have an open house tomorrow . Not many of my friends are able to come . Hopefully at least someone will come . I just wish you were here . Because you never come to my house for raya before . ): I MISS YOU .

Hey sayang ! I'm tired from attachment . And my teacher is really really annoying ! I was doing wound dressing for a patient . Dia really have a bad attitude . She keeps on thinking she is right everytime . EVERYTIME ! I swear , I hate her . The way she stares at students is really irritating . Naseb I suka dapat cikgu macam gitu . I nye sarcasm confirm dia senyap . Hehe (: Anyway , since I da lama tak jumpa abang Hidir , dia ajak I keluar . I meet him and kawan Aisyah nama dia Shafiq . So it's the three of us , me , abang Hidir and Shafiq . If you can see , 3 of us is VERY close to Aisyah . Since nama die da busuk , none of us even layan die lagi . I don't ever wanna call her kakak lagi ! We ate Sushi at Dhoby Ghaut . Then we talk about Aisyah and just lepak je . Anyway , I bought a new bag from Charles and Keith . Can't wait to use it ! Hehe (: Oh , I got 20 bucks duit raya from abang Hidir ! Haha ! I MISS YOU SO MUCH !

Attachment again . I end at 9pm ! Then I went to meet Shan and Naqiyah at Bishan . Just hang around for few hours then my dad fetch me home . Sayang nak tahu tak , my clinical teacher is seriously irritating . She's like trying to fail us greatly . Benci sangat dengan dia . She's like picking on me too much . I don't know what did I do wrong at all . I wish you were here so that you can take my frustration away . You were always there for me sayang . Everytime I look at the Police Cantonment building , I think of you . And I just wish that you were there to teman me balik rumah . I miss you more than I ever did sayang . I CINTAKAN YOU .

Sayaaang ! Finally today I love my attachment . HAHA ! Baru second day sey . I will never know how it will be sooner or later . Sayang , today I dreamed about you . My dream hurts so bad . We were having so much fun and then suddenly you decided to leave me . I cried . I salam your mum and decided to go straight home . You nak hantar I but I tolak you away . Few days later was my exam . While I was having exam I told you to walk pass my exam hall . I saw you walking pass so I chased after you . Then you said you weren't waiting for me at all ! You terus tinggalkan I kat sana . I was crying so so badly . I look through your facebook face and you that time da kaya . And you terus lupakan I . You lupakan I macam gitu aje . When I woke up , I felt tears in my eyes . I was literally crying while dreaming about that ! It feels so real sayang . Will it ever come true ? So today I started talking with the ITE students . They are so gerek ! I don't know how would I...

Sayaaang ! I received your 8th letter TODAY ! I had a huge hunch that your letter is in my mailbox . AND THERE IT WAS ! Hehe (: I read that letter on my way to attachment and it made me laugh in the train . Orang tengok I macam I orang gila pulak . So now , let me reply to that letter first . Sayang , right now I'm quite sick not that sihat . My attachment is going just fine . I just hope tomorrow I tak pengsan sudah . Thank you sayang for the birthday wish ! YOU KATE I MAKIN TUA ?! You tu LAAAGI tua dari I  Hmph ! Naseb you kate I cute , kalau tak . . . . . . (: Sayang , I da maafkan you sayang . Really . Even if I can't forget but I do forgive you sayang . Sayang . . . I'm sorry to tell you , but kuih tart chocolate da habis . Diorang semua serbu tu benda je ! Sayang , PROMISE me that next year you WILL celebrate the first day of raya with me ! Promise me . Sayang , I sangat cintakan you jugak sayang . I need you every single day . I don't feel safe w...

Hello SAYANGKUUU ! I baru balik dari jalam raya . As usual , penat sey sayang . Right now I have sore throat and selesema . Tomorrow is my first day of attachment and I'm scared I'm too weak ! I feel like I'll be down with fever soon . Hais . . . Where are you when I needed you here with me ? Sayang , yesterday I da penat and ngantok . But I just couldn't sleep at all ! Are you alright ? Did anything happened to you sayang ? Sayang , did you remember the photo you took at the CD toilet ? The one you took from the mirror . That is the first photo I saw of you . I termenung je kat photo tu semalam and it bring me to tears . A guy that never trust girls end up to be falling in love with me . How did that happened sayang ? I keep on thinking , "Am I the one for you ?" Honestly sayang , even how many times you hurt me , I am still lucky to have you . Sayang , sorry kalau this letter is quite short everyday . I've been busy studying and kelu...

Sayaaaaang ! I just came back from Raya outing . It's still early right now . SAYANG ! I lupa nak bilang youuu something semalam ! I cut my hair . But not short at all la . I layered it and trim it a bit . Ringan sikit rambut I ni sekarang . Sayang , today is 25 !!! Duit I masok ! Weeeeee ! Tapi nak shopping ape eh ? Kalau sayang ade , nari jugak habis ! Sayang , I really hope sayang tak marah pasal semalam . Please trust me kay sayang ? I need your full trust . I tidak akan replace you . I . WILL . NOT . Hais , besok my friend nye rumah ade open house . Then next week pun same . Penat pulak nanti jalan2 dengan heels I ni . Sayang , since you bilang I takmo bobal merepek tentang what I feel and all , I macam have nothing much to talk about . Okay lah , I nak main game . Goodnight sayang ! I CINTAKAN YOU .

I just reached home . I don't want to tell you what time it is . Because I know you are going to go mad . MY EXAMS ARE OVERRR ! Like FINALLY ! After school today , my class had a after exam party . Makan pizza je . Haha ! Then after that I went straight home . At 5 Zaim called me and asked me whether I wanted to follow for End Exam Celebration . I ikot la . So the ones that went were me , Zaim , Zul and Adli . We all went out to Shisha . Haha ! Semua gila2 kat luar . Nothing really that extraordinary with them anyway . Bebual merepek je all the way . So right now I'm home . Da almost 26 hours I belum tidur since malam semalam . And I NEED SOME SLEEP ! Attachment I starts this coming Monday . And finally I am posted to SGH !!! Hopefully I can get use to the environment . Sayang , lepas attachment I ni , I terus pergi Cambodia the week after . Sayang , sayang please takmo worry please . Sayang doakan I biar I selamat kat sane kay sayang ? Just for 2 week...

Hello sayang ! Right now it is 2:33am . BESOK LAST PAPERRR ! AHHHHH ! Haha ! But seriously , this paper kalau I tak pass , I repeat sey ! AND I AM NOT GOING TO REPEAT ! I'm studying right now . Sayang , Raya tahun ni macam tak rasa ape2 . Firstly is because you are in prison . Second is I am having exams ! Third is because Raya didn't fall on a month of holiday . Sayang , do you think I can survive another 6 months without you ? Sayang nak tahu something tak ? Today , 23rd August 2012 is exactly half of the time you are going to stay in prison . I have to wait for another 185 more days . HUNDRED AND EIGHTY-FIVE ! Fuyoooh ! Haha ! Lama seyyy . Gini eh rasanye jadi single ? Single but takle mingle . Kan ? Hehe :P I've been with you everyday for 24 hours . And when it suddenly stopped , my world really feels so quiet . You know how it feels like right ? Your world is much much more quiet kan ? Sayang , jangan sekali pun sayang pikir I akan replace you . ...

Hello sayangkuuu . Today reached 5 years of our happiest day sayang . I can never stop thinking about that day . I love you sayang . I never regret doing everything with you . Sayang , yesterday I went out at 12am . Please jangan marah . I pergi belajar dengan Zaim and Zul kat Mcdonalds . And I really did study sayang . I takut sangat kalau I fail . So I studied with them till 6am . Lepas tu I balik and straight gi school to take my exam . But alhamdulillah I get to finish the paper . Sayang , takmo marah kay ? I akan selalu setia menunggu sayang . Right now I'm not yet sleepy at all . Feels like studying later . Sayang , I never thought that one day you will be leaving me alone like this . But you leaving me like this on my own proves that I can be stronger than I before . Just for tonight , I will let the memories flows in my mind . The memories of our first love that bloom . I CINTAKAN YOU .

Sayaaaaaang ! Hehe ! HELLOOO ! This morning your mum became my alarm clock . But then I tertidur balik and I woke up at 11:30 ! I was LATE ! I terus suruh my brother send both of us to visit you . When I reached PLC , it was really crowded ! Ramai orang pakai baju Raya sey sayang ! And I regret of not wearing it ! ): I nak step muka marajok kat you pun tak jadi starting2 . Bila I nampak you je I nye muka terus senyum . I rindu you sangaaat ! Ape yang uat muka I ni berseri sey sayang ? Biasa je ? I tadi da lah tak pakai make-up terus ! You rindu I sangat jugak ke sayang ? Haha ! You were too cute when you said that you were jealous . Sayang , I'm sorry for making you jealous . I didn't know that you are . Why didn't you tell me in the first place ? But you trust me right ? You know that I love you more than anything else in the world right ? You should know that . Sayang , when you said that tomorrow is our hari bahagia and hari keistemewaan , I was touche...

Hi sayaaang . I penaaatlah sangat . I just came back from 2nd day Raya outing with my family and cousins . Collection lagiii . Hehe (: Hais . . . Tadi I tengok cerita Azura . It's not the old one , it's the new one . And it is really sad . But I try my best not to cry . I was at my cousin's house sey ! It reminds me of you and I . Okay , moving on . . . I am meeting you tomorrow ! Excited tak sayang ? Hehe (: Should I wear baju kurung to prison ? Haha ! Nanti lawa sangat you marah pulak . Hehe (: I nak step merajok ah dengan you besok . I tak suka latest surat you . Hmph ! Kay lah , da malam , I need to studyyy ! Tata sayang ! I CINTAKAN YOU .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA SAYANG ! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN ! Finally Raya is here sayang . Penat I kemas rumah . Semalam I ton dengan nenek I sampai pukul 5 . Penat nari I keluar jalan dengan family . I masih dapat collection ! Hehe (: Masih sekolah pe even though I dapat bonding money . Nanti nak kira collection . Sayang , sayang raya kat dalam macam mane ? Okay tak sayang ? Do they celebrate or something ? Hais . . . kesian sayang . ): Anyway , I'm seeing you in 2 more days ! I nak step merajok ah dengan you sebab the latest letter you bagi I . Hmph ! Okay lah , I nak go sleep . Tomorrow keluar raya pagi2 . LOVE YOUUU !

Hello sayaaang ! Right now is malam Raya and my house finally da settle down . Tadi sebok gila sey sayang . OMG , Sayang nak tahu something tak ?!!! GROSS TAU SAYANG ! Tadi I nga on the way nak gi busstop dengan my adek . Then this apek naik bicycle ride pass us . AND OMG , he said this , "Mmm , sedapnyeee ." He was looking at my body up and down while saying that . I terus pusing and said , "Kau sakit otak pe apek ?" GELIII !!! EWWW ! Kalau sayang ade , I tak tahu ape jadi . It was seriously gross to the core . Sayang , I sedih Raya tahun ni you takde . I pikirkan you je dari tadi . Harap2 sayang kat dalam okay . Sayang , I minta maaf atas semua kesalahan I terhadap you . I banyak uat you sakit hati . I banyak uat you marah . Tapi tetap you sabar and setia dengan I . I bersyukur dapat lelaki macam you . Sayang , halalkan makan minum yang you telah bagi I selama ni . Selamat Hari Raya sayang , maaf zahir dan batin . I CINTAKAN YOU .

Hello sayang . Right now it is 3:50am . I baru lepas anyam ketupat . I buat dari pukul 11:30 . Banyak sey ketupat . I rasa tetap tu semua tak cukup for Raya . Anyway sayang , just now I did my first paper for this term . And guess what ?! IT WAS EASY ! Well , not too easy but it was doable . I was so scared that whatever I study won't come out . But the topics that I studied all came out ! Alhamdulillah ! I guess you banyak doakan I kat dalam eh sayang ? Sayang nak tahu tak ? Tadi bila I nak gi school , I forgot to wear my watch and my "Cino" bracelet . And I felt really uncomfortable . I feel like there won't be any luck for the paper . But luckily when I look at the paper , it was easy . Tomorrow is the last day of Ramadhan . And then . . . Jengjengjeng , RAYA ! Hehe . Tak sabar nye nak Raya . But still , you're not here for Raya . Hais . . .

Hello . (: Since I cannot talk much about my thoughts anymore , I did nothing today except study . Tomorrow is my exam and I need to study and study . It's difficult without having you around here to study with . Anyway , I'm not sleeping tonight . Will study till sahur then baru I tidur . Paper is at 2:30 luckily . Wow , that is all I can say for today . 3 more days to raya . Kat dalam ade uat celebration or anything ? I nak tahu jugak . I guess that's all . Oh I almost forgot . HAPPY 5 YEAR 3 MONTHS ! (: Bye sayang .

Sayang , I received your letter just now . And I must say that when I read that letter , I never thought that was you . Your English in that letter was REALLY GOOD ! I mean REALLY . I never seen you write THAT GOOD . It's not perfect but it's GOOD . Haha ! I guess it is time for me to reply to you . I sihat walafiat sayang . Sayang lemah sebab puasa ? Haha ! Cute la sayang . Alhamdulillah sayang puasa . Make sure full tau sayang ! Memang I selalu type surat malam2 . Since I takle bobal2 dengan you malam2 like we used to , I type la malam2 . In a way I am talking to you too . You got a little hurt when I asked you , "What if you were to betray me once again , what should I do sayang ?" Why were you hurt sayang ? It is just a question . You want me to think ahead . I've been thinking ahead when I was with you . But you had been living in the past . The past that I really hate ! You went back to your old life . How can I think ahead ? My thoughts of th...

Sayaaang ! Hehe (: I am so sleepy right now and it's only 11:05pm ! I didn't have enough sleep these past few days la sayang . Belajar je , mana sempat nak tidur . Anyway , tadi I went to see your mum kat rumah you . I buka with your mum . I LOVE your mum's cooking ! Then your dad balik . Your dad pakai kasut VANS you yang you baru beli ! Haha ! Da hancur bederai pun kasut tu . Nanti you keluar , I buy for you a new one kay ? Kesian kasut you tu bila I tengok . Haha ! Tadi I watched TV with your parents . Your dad nye ketawe takle angkat ! Kadang I ketawe bukan pasal cerita tu kelakar , it's because of your dad's laugh . Haha ! xD Hmm , I'm going out with your mum in the morning tomorrow . At around 9am . It's about your duit GST I think . She wants me to follow . Ikut je la . Just now your mum talks about you and Hatim . She feels sad that you two are not able to celebrate HariRaya with us this year . Your dad pulak takde mood untuk Ra...

Hello sayangkuuu ! Right now it's 2:16am . I just came back home . I went out with my brother to cuci kereta with his friends . Anyway , TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY ! Hehe (: Banyak kawan I wish I sey sayang . The only special one I was waiting for is from you . Sadly I didn't get to hear it from you . Anyway, Abang Hidir bought for me a small handbag brand Guess ! Hehe (: I like ! My parents bought for me New Look heels and $100 . Fatin bought for me Revlon lipstick and my brother bought for me Britney Spears perfume ! YAY ! They bought a lot of things for meee ! This year's birthday was ALMOST perfect . It will only be perfect when you were there celebrating with me . Sayang , my brother and Shima is on the verge of breaking up . Their reason is that their Love fade since they didn't see each other . Then I told my brother , "My love for Hilman is still strong after 6 months." I just don't understand why his love fade . I'm like all other...

Right now is after midnight ! (12:34am) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! I am officially 19 years old . My last year of being a teenager . I know I should be happy today , but something is always missing . And that something is you . I wish I can hear you wish me Happy Birthday right now . Hais , ini pun boleh uat I nangis . I just need to hear that sayang . I NEED to hear that . I just have a feeling that you are wishing me right this moment . I don't know why tonight I just feel close to you . Anyway , today I bought my shoes from New Look . As usual sayang , it is platform heels . That is my birthday present from my parents . And what about from you ? I tak dapat ape2 present ke ? Hehe (: Just having you here right next beside me will be the greatest present ever ! Last year , my birthday was nothing . This year , it is still nothing . I won't be surprise if next year , you akan uat hal lagi on my birthday . I don't think my birthday really mean anything to y...

As per usual , I'm sleeping late again . Can't sleep . So I'll be up all night playing The Sims . Today I petang2 malas nak mampos . My parents bingit dengan I . Haha . I  ketawe je . But then malam I kemas satu rumah ! Semua gi terawih, I dengan Fatin kemas rumah . Rajin kan I ? Hehe (: Tadi I gi Giant kat Nex and I saw Suhaimi Yusof ! He looks like a giant in real life ! He's even taller than my father . Fuyoooh ! Haha ! Hais , siapa pulak chat dengan I kat Facebook malam2 buta ni ? Tadi petang pun ade laki chat dengan I . Tapi I tak layan laki petang tuh . Dia kate Hello terus off . Sekarang ni lets see . . . Hmmm . . . Hahahaha ! Bilang dia I attached terus kate , "Oh okay , taknak ganggu la . Take care!" Okay bagus . I pun malas nak layan diorang semua . Birthday I is in 2 days . Exam I in 6 days . Hari Raya in 8 days . I'm visiting you in 10 days . Hidup I ni da banyak sangat schedule . Sayang , tadi I bobal dengan Fatin ab...

I was weak today . Stayed in bed the whole time . I was supposed to go to school , but I woke up late . Hais . . . Sayang , Hari Raya is in 10 more days sayang . This year, I can't celebrate with you . You won't be accompanying me on the first day of Raya . I will have to layan sedara2 I sebelah my dad . I just wish you were here . Seems like these past few days I have nothing much to talk about . Tomorrow is the starting of the weekend . And I'll be at home studying for my exam . Hopefully I am able to do my paper . My life is getting much and much boring without you . I prefer sleeping . At least I can dream about you . I wanna be a sleeping beauty . Kiss me once you're out okay ? Hais , da start la merepek I ni . I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW . I tengok laptop I , laptop I tengok I . Tu je ah I buat satu hari . I wonder how do you survive inside sayang. That you you kate ramai orang kat sana kate kalau sekali da masuk mesti ade dua kali. IT IS SO NO...

Hello sayangku ! Today I kemas rumah sayang . Just kat luar aje . Nothing much . Anyway sayang , this morning bila I sahur , my parents tiba2 start la diorang nye angin . I was the one who kena marah the most . Fatin dengan abang I terus masuk bilik . I kat luar nga makan sahur so I yang kene . I cried while eating . I keep on getting this and I am sick of it ! After eating , I stared out the kitchen window thinking about you . I'm fragile , I'm emotionally weak . If something were to just hit me emotionally , I'll just have a breakdown . You are not here anymore to make me feel better . I cried even more thinking about it . And if reading this make you think that I'm immature , think again . I need you to be here . You are my life . You are gone now . If you think I keep on crying for you is stupid , means you never understood me . Da la . I asyik pikir yang you kate I macam budak kecik kat surat . It really makes me quite mad . Hais . . . Good ...

Today is HUNDRED AND SEVENTY DAYS without you ! Wow , it is going to be almost 6 months without you . I can't believe I can still be this strong . I guess I'm stronger than I think I am . Anyway , today Abang Hidir ajak I keluar tengok wayang . He has two free tickets . So he ajak me . I watched The Bourne Legacy . Tak salah I've watched this with you before . The first few sequel . You ingat tak ? You kan suka cerita macam gitu . Sayang , tomorrow is National Day . Sayang kat dalam pakai merah tak ? Haha ! Okay , I da start da merepek I . Sayang , yesterday visits was mostly you marah I . I know you love me . I just need you to trust me that I will never cheat on you . Never okay ? I CINTAKAN YOU .

I'm back again sayang . Just now I went Swensens for buka with my two girlfriends . Ernie and Dalila . They are the ones that put through with my nonsense in Year 2 . Since I end school at 7pm just now , might as well eat kat luar kan ? My test just now was easy Alhamdulillah . Sayang , I'm sorry for making you worried most of the time in prison . But that is how I always do when you are here with me . I always tell you where I go , who am I with and what time I'll be home . So I tell you everything in the letter . Getting mad at you wasn't right at all . Mesti lah you kat dalam pikir macam gitu . And I tahu you kat dalam pun mengharap I kat luar tak main belakang you . I understand your feelings and situation inside sayang . You tak nampak , so not every words I say would be true . But trust me when I say I love you and only you . I nak you tutup mata sebelum tidur and picture me with you . I want you to remember our happy days . In your head , pict...

Sayang ! I'm in school right now ! It's almost 2 here . I was thinking about what you said during the visit . I was quite irritated when you say that I'm immature in the letters . What do YOU want me to think about when you're inside ? How can I think about happy things when you betrayed me ? You lied to me . You cheated on me . And yes , I forgive you . But did you think I can forget ? No , I don't think I can . Wait until I see you change and I will think about it . And you know that you do not have to worry because I will always and forever be with you . I'm quite mad with you right now . Why did you say that I might have another guy ? Why are you accusing me of such things ? Almost 7 months pass and my love for you is as strong as ever . I visit you every time I had a chance to . I wrote letters to you every single day about my life . I bought for you whatever you need while your time in there. And you said that I have another guy in my ...

Now is 12:27 Before I continue with my work , I need to post this letter first . Hehe (: Sayang , today most people in school wearing purple . A girl from my course , nursing , passed away . She committed suicide . She is only 18 sey sayang . The newspaper said that she has relationship problems . But my friends all said that is a lie . I know that girl . I may have talked to her once or twice . I'm not that close to her . I'm so surprised that a week ago I just saw her laughing . And now she's gone . I can understand how her bestfriends feel . I saw a guy , he was her bestfriend . He look so sad and gloomy . He reminded me of myself when you were gone . I am much better now . It will take time for him to heal . But he will be okay one day . Anyway , I'll be seeing you tomorrow ! Well technically it is today ! I'll see you in 7 hours ! Hopefully sayang rindu I sangat sangat la . Hehe (: Today da starting of week 25 . Da 168 days without you...

Right now it's just after maghrib . Sayang , I'm crying right now . Not because of you but because of my parents . We went out just now , and I wore a simple dress . My dad suddenly get so bising and said that I was overdressed . Diroang selalu kate kalau boleh , pakai baju yang da gantung . Baju tu I da pakai untuk sekolah , so I wore it again today . I terus tak bebual dengan my dad . Then just now , I gaduh dengan my brother . He said I tu lah ni la . Then I just said , "Diam ah bodoh ." My mum stepped in and marah I just because of the "bodoh" word . Which actually the starting of our quarrel was his fault . I don't know why everyone is trying to get me today . Ape I uat salah sey you ? And everytime when this happens , I just wish I can just run to you . But I know I can't . So all I did was cry silently in my room . I wish you were right here with me to erase all my problems away . But nothing I do can bring you back here rig...

Today is SUCH a boring day ! Oh , HELLO SAYANG ! Today I cuma keluar at 10:30 to belajar with Zaim and Hakim . Then at 12 I terus balik . Right now it's 2:10 and I have been staring at the laptop . Might be playing Sims 3 later on . Sayang , if only I can erase the bad memories away , I won't be like this . I would be happy living my life right now . But all I did everyday was thinking about the bad things you did . If you love me you would stop everything . But you secretly did it behind my back . How dare you sayang ? I HATE WHENEVER I THINK ABOUT THIS . Ish , I bingit dengan diri sendiri . Why do I have to think about negative things all the time ? What do you think about when you're inside sayang ? Do you think about me ? Do you think about us ? Do you think negative things about me ? Let me know sayang . I'll be seeing you on 7th August . It's two more days . See you sayang . I AKAN SELALU CINTAKAN YOU .

Good Midnight Sayang ! Hehe (: Right now is 12:46am . I just came back from Geylang with my family . Just now I buka with Rusydi, Haziq and Ira . Kalau you lupa siapa , it's my secondary school friends . But Abang Hidir follow too la since he has nothing to do . After we ate Pastamania , we went to lepak since it was raining so heavily . We have no where to go , lepak pun jadi la . We talked about ghost story , NS lifes and our secondary school life . Diorang menyeramkan je ah . Naseb I balik dengan my family . Kalau tak seraaam ! Haha ! Sayang , macam da lama sangat I tak visit sayang . Rindu sangat la sayang . Takpe , sabar kay ? I'll see you in 4 more days sayang . Just 4 more days . Sayang , my gigi is in pain right now . It's like one of my teeth is loose . Nanti check2 terus bogey ! Ish ! Sejak I pakai braces ni , makan tu sakit , makan ni sakit ! Nasib dengdeng masih boleh kunya . Kalau tak , I buka braces ni . Haha ! Dulu mati2 nak braces . Bil...

Sayaaang ! I just reached home from fetching my mum . (12:53am) So tired ! Today I went buke with Abang Hidir again . Honestly sayang , he's like a brother to me . He's so caring . But sadly he has too much problem with Kak Aisyah . But he would still want to marry her . Hais , I don't understand him really . Sayang tak marah kan I asyik keluar dengan Abang Hidir ? If yes , sayang tell me kay ? So anyway , I got my dengdeng again today ! Hehe (: SUKA SANGAT ! :D Sayang , would you be like Abang Hidir ? Even if I were to leave you , would you wait till I come back to you ? I was wondering about it . Would you ? Or would you just move on and find another ? Sometimes I wonder too . If you were to leave me , I would wait for you . But I have limits too . And if I see you happy with some other girls , I would tell myself to move on too . I guess it depends right ? Five more days to see you sayang . I CINTAKAN YOU .

Hello sayang . Today I did my NS1 test . It was easy ! Yay ! I hope to get full marks for it . Hopefully I will get it sayang . Today Abang Hidir came to my school to buka with me . I act as if he was my boyf . HAHA ! He played along with it . Then my friends believe it sey ! Then they was like , "What about your boyf inside jail ?" Then terus I kate , "No lah ! This is my brother je la !" Haha ! My friends face semua takle angkat sey . They all looked so shocked and speechless . I baru balik ni . Sayang , I was thinking about what you said in the letters . I can stop smoking . Antara nak ke taknak . I guess I can't stop . But I'm not heavy sayang . It's like dulu2 . Bila takde sudah . Bila ade duit baru beli . Talking about money kan sayang , I really feel like buying for you iPhone . Or maybe some other phones that enable you to video chat dengan I . Kan best ? We'll see about it kay ? I miss you sayang . I CINTAKAN YOU ....