Day 31

Sayang , I slept at 5 yesterday .

I couldn't sleep .

So I did something that I regretted knowing .

I went to search for your name on Google .

And I read something in someone's blog .

Sayang , do you know who is Angy Asmara ?

She talked about a guy named Cino from Bedok South .

She said that you asked her to be your girlfriend .

She knew Prashan, Taufiq, Md Noh and Madan .

Then Cino should be you right ?

You kenal2 dengan dia on October 2009 .

Sayang , we already 2 years 5 months at that moment .

And when I read our blog , at that month , kite banyak gaduh and I asked for break up .

Sayang , honestly , do you know her ?

Sayang , jangan salah sangka please ?

I takde niat nak uat ni semua .

I tak tahu kenape I tergerak hati nak search about you .

Padahal I da lama tak search about you .

It's like Allah wants me to know something .

I regret doing that sayang .

Sebab sekarang I tak tenteram .

Lepas QQ and now Angy mane entah ni .

Sayang I want to live my life with you .

And if you have a lot of secrets that you have been keeping from me , please tell me .

I taknak dapat tahu bila you keluar nanti .

I nak tahu sekarang . I nak you bilang I semua .

I have been jujur dengan you sayang .

I've been honest .

I told you about Ahn , Azrai and Apiz .

Sayang PLEASE , I beg you sayang . PLEASE tell me the truth .

Hati I nak nangis you bila I baca tu semua .

But now it's 2012 . It happen 3 years ago .

But I need to know the truth sayang . Please .

Every single day I wait .

Every single day I think of you .

And if thinking about all this is what I think about , it hurts .

Please sayang , I'm begging you .

Tenangkanlah hati I ni sayang .

I'll always love you no matter what happen .