Day 26

Hey sayang .

My brother today return back from Saudi .

And he brings home a lot of chocolate .

Muak sey !

I just came back from rumah Zaim .

I'm not keeping anything from you sayang .

He invited me and Hakim for dinner .

But then Hakim cannot make it .

So I went .

We watched TV sambil makan je .

His brother and auntie are at home sayang .

Sayang trust me kan ?

I love you and only you sayang .

Please takmo worry kay ?

Cinta I terhadap you tak akan berubah sayang .

Anyway , I'm seeing you in two more days .

I don't know what to say .

I think I know but I don't know whether it's the right time to ask .

Sayang , did you realised that the last time I saw you was on 19 February ?

And the next time I'm seeing you will be on the 19 March .

Sayaaang , why did we fight sayang ?

Sayang , when I look at our previous messages , we quarrel alot .

Since October sayang .

Banyak kali kita gaduh sayang .

Why does it have to happen sayang ?

Is it really my fault sayang ?

Did I make you become like this ?

Why didn't you listen to me sayang ?

Why did you do this to me sayang ?

I've been loving you all my life and all I need in return is for you to love me back .

Not even money matters .

All I think about everyday is you sayang .

All I need is you sayang .

Sayang tahu tak ? Everytime I balik lambat I feel scared .

It's because I'm not on the phone with you .

I don't feel safe anymore sayang .

I takut anything were to happen to me .

And you tak boleh uat ape2 sayang .

Sayang , do you know why I'm strong ?

It's because of you sayang .

Our love make me a stronger person .

But when you are gone , I feel weak .

I feel fragile . It's like people can break me anytime .

You are the only one that complete my life .

And since you are not here now , I'm incomplete .

I lost the love I love THE MOST .

And I'm learning how to live half a life .