Day 17

Tomorrow is Friday and it is going to be the end of another week without you .

It is going to be 3 weeks past .

49 more weeks left .

11 months and ten days left .

347 days left .

Every week I kira sayang .

Every week I minus seven from the days left .

It's very slow sayang .

Bila you takde kat sini , the time is really really slow .

And sayang , I rasa I gain weight sayang .

Since you were gone , satu minggu I tak makan betul .

I cuma makan one bowl of bubur each day .

That was the time I kurus gila you .

But since I nye attachment , I have to eat to have energy .

I think I ate too much already .

Or maybe , Rayyan is in my body ?

Sayang , I've been thinking about the day we were at Amber .

Sayang , I'm craving for you too much .

I've been thinking about it sayang .

So you remember , we've been quarreling too much .

Too much that we don't look at each other properly anymore .

Right now , it's like too late .

Too late to even be in each other's arms right now .

I really miss your touch .

A little bit of your touch PLEASE .