Day 98

Another dreadful week starting without you .
Today is the starting of the 15 week .
FIFTEEN WEEKS WITHOUT YOU .

I never thought that this would happen to us .
But somehow somewhere I knew that if you never change ,
this is what would happen to us .
You should know why I said that .
Think back on what I've been saying sayang .
You chose this pathway for yourself.
You choose to be in jail .
You choose to live your life away from me .
Yes sayang , you chose this .
And if you are denying me right now , you are wrong .
I'm right all along .
Whenever you said , "Semua you betul , I semua salah ."
It is SO true . If you had listened to me , I don't think you are sent in jail .
So yes , you chose this path of life .

Tak guna kalau you keluar but nothing change .
If you want to step out of that place , promise yourself that you will change .
Change for the sake of your mum .
And if you really love me a lot , change for the sake of your love for me .

Today was my test .
And I don't think I did that well .
You weren't there to wish me luck sayang .
You are my good luck charm . I guess you really are sayang .
I really have no confidence on my paper .

Anyway , my exam will be next week !
I gotta study sayang !
If only I can here your voice wishing me luck .
I miss you so much sayang .

Please listen to me okay sayang ?
I love you .

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