Day 72

Back to school again .
Nothing much to say sayang .

But here's what I've been thinking .

Sayang , I've been there for you since the start .
I've been there for you since you declared your love towards me .
You went into DB for a month , I'm still here waiting .
You went into prison for 2 weeks , I'm still here waiting .
And now you are in again for god knows how long , I will still be waiting .
Sayang what more do you need from me ?
What more do you want me to prove to you that I love you so much ?
You shouted to me the very last fight we had .
You wanted us to go our separate ways .
You vent all your anger to me .
Was it my fault sayang ?
I keep on thinking about that day .
It was my fault . It really was .
I was ignoring you . I was away from you .
And I know that all you need was my love .
Since I've been so rude towards you , Cino just came out of your system .
But you apologise . That's what I want back .
The one that apologises . That is the Hilman I know .
Everytime I think about that night , I'll cry so bad .
And yes , I'm crying again sayang .

When you're out , please please buang semua kelakuan jahat you tu semua .
I taknak suffer lagi . I taknak dilukai lagi .
I love you sayang .

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