Day 324

O H M Y G O D !
I HATE MY DREAM !
I just woke up from my dream . (10:07pm)
And I have to tell you .
It is just so heartbreaking .

In my dream , I was the one that was sent to jail .
I have no idea why , but I was in there .
Soon , I was released and of course , I would be searching for you .
In my dream I stayed at your house .
So when I reached home , I did not see you .
I asked your mum and she said you were out .
So I waited at home to surprise you .
But you came home too late that I was already fast asleep .
I woke up to the sound of you going out of the house early in the morning .
I opened the front door and you were gone again .
You did not even notice that I'm back home .
I thought you changed your number , so I just tried my luck and call you .
And guess who picked up my call ? A girl .
So I asked where are you ? She said you were in the toilet .
When I ask where exactly you are , she passed the phone to you .
Then you told me to call you back .
I was heartbroken . Who is that girl ?
The next morning I chase you when you get our of the house .
You brought me up to the rooftop and tell me that you are in love with another girl .
I said : "No , this can't be happening . How far is your relationship with her ?"You said : "Yes , we both did it already ."My heart sank , greatly .
Then I said : "This is too much , I can't tolerate this anymore ."
You just said : "Okay ."
You were sitting down , I stood in front of you on my knees .
I said : "After 5 years , this is what you do to me ?"
You : "You left for a year , things change a lot ."
I : "But you promised to be with me till the end ."
You : "Like I said , things change ."
I : "No , I won't let you , come back to me please , please ."
You keep on refusing .

Then I terbangun . And I realised that I was talking in my sleep .
Because when I woke up , I was saying , "Please you , please don't , please !"
This is what happen if I were to sleep during Mahgrib time .
It hurts like the first day you left me alone in this world when you went in .
It felt so much like that !

Sayang , I guess I was meant to dream that .
I know what you are afraid of when you keluar nanti .
You are afraid that might happen kan ?
You are afraid I fall for another guy because you were gone for too long .
Trust me , nothing like that would happen .

I received your letter today !
Minus today , we have 48 more days left .
And I have LESS THAN A MONTH before my Final Year Exam !
URGH !
Wish me luck sayang ! MMMUAH !
Love you !