♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

Hello sayang . It's 4am right now . And I'm not asleep . Not new to you I guess . I'm not gonna dwell on telling you what I did today . I just need you to know something . Every single time we fought , what do you really feel ? What was really going through your mind ? Did you feel like you wanted to win or did you feel like you just wanted it to stop ? OR did you feel like breaking up with me ? We fought a lot of times . Too much actually . And you got sick and tired of it . I know . You would just agree on breaking up with me than to run after me . I'm sick and tired too . Sick and tired of your LIES and CHEATS . That is why I keep on breaking up with you . But the real thing that is going trough my mind , you will never know . The clues are right there infront of you . It's too obvious . I love you .

Sayaaaaaaaaaang ! I just came back from Wild Wild Wet ! It was really SO fun ! I went there with my cousins , Fatin and Aqilah . Aqilah is so cute sey sayang ! I love seeing her having so much fun . I just wished that you were there too . You can have fun with us . I always imagine that you were there with me when I'm having fun . I will always picture you and I having fun in the pool , laughing . But all I have to do is wait 2 more months . Things may change . But leaving you is never my choice . I love you so much sayang . Too too much .

I BOUGHT A NEW iPOD TOUCH ! I HAVE TO SAY THAT ! Hehe (: I trade in my iPod touch 4 with iPod touch 5 !!! LAWAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! Hehe (: Suka sangat !!! Okay okay , I chill . Hehe (: Today I went to Jurong Point at BoonLay . Asyik daerah East side je , so I gi west and meet my cousin , Yaya . We walked around to find baju swimming for tomorrow . Then after that I balik rumah dia and lepak skejap . Lepas maghrib baru I dengan Nisa , adik Yaya , go to my house . I have sleepover at my house today ! So right now no one is asleep yet ! We all are playing The Sims after this . I know , you mesti kate I tak habis2 . WHATEVERRR . TATA ! MMUAH !

Hello sayang ! It's almost 12am now . I think I might be sleeping soon since I'm going to bank in the morning . Anyway sayang , my back is not better yet . It is still the same . I might be going to see doctor tomorrow . What's the cause of that sey ! Frustrating much ! Sayang , when school reopens the time will definitely go really fast . Sekelip mata , you will be out . I don't know why am I nervous right now . Thinking about you being release is making me really nervous . Anyway sayang , just now your mum messaged me and ask me for money . I don't have any money right now . My mum withdrawing it tomorrow . I feel so bad . But I told her I'm giving her this Saturday . She did not reply at all . Hmmm . . . Sayang , pernah dengar lagu Sama-sama suka by Radja ? Hehe , I tak habis2 dengan lagu Radja . But the song is about a guy and a girl who is in love with each other , but have to be separated and be with another person ...

Hello sayang ! It's 3:21am right now . Belum nak tidur lagi . Aaaaaaannnnnddd , I RECEIVED YOUR LETTER . LIKE FINALLY . Pfft ! And yah , you did not send to anyone else . The letter is the one that arrived late . Sorry for being so angry at you . Sorry . . . Sayang ,  if something bad happen to me , you know that you still need to move on right ? Takde jodoh sayang , nak uatpe kan . Da masanya pun . Sayang let me quote something you wrote . "Please beri I peluang yang terakhir untuk betul-betul berubah you . . I janji I akan berubah jadi seorang yang baik dan I takkan hampakan you lagi kali ini . . I betul-betul sayangkan you . . I ingin hidup bahagia dengan you seumur hidup I . ." Do you know that whatever you wrote there has been repeated thousands of times ? Handphone I baaaaanyak message you tu . Sekarang bila you masuk ni , boleh I percaya tu ? I really really want to believe that . Do you know that every single time that you said that , I believed...

SAYANG ! I have a major news ! A TERRIBLE MAJOR NEWS ! I HATE IT SOOO MUCH ! This morning I woke up and I found a lot of zits at my back !!! Zits = body pimple IT IS A LOT ! And it is FREAKING ME OUT ! And the odd thing about it is the zits shaped like my hair ! The "V" shape and all . It's as long as my hair !!! Below the length of my hair takde pape pun ! I mean the skin that doesn't touch my hair , it is COMPLETELY CLEAN ! It is GROSS ! It really is ! Should I cut my hair sayang ? I HATE SHORT HAIR . Will I even look good in short hair ? Sayang , HELP ME ! I LOVE MY HAIRRR !!! UWEKKKKK ! But if I really have to cut my hair , I'll CRY . Lama sey I simpan rambut ni . Okay , anyway today is Chrismas . My whole family at home . We all played Dance Central on Kinect . My parents semua joget so cute and funny of course ! Then Aqilah lose to my dad . Dia tak kasi my dad rest sampai die yang menang . So my dad bagi chance so that die boleh mena...

HARLO SAYANG ! (: I just came back from dinner at nex KFC . Since my atuk and nenek balik kampung , my mum tak masak . So asyik keluar makan je . Besok I'm going to kemas rumah and probably masak too . Alahaisss . I wanna say something , but I don't want to . I don't want you to get irritated by my thoughts . I guess I'll just keep it to myself then . My family now is calling me to play kinect . I might prbably type about what I am thinking tomorrow . Love you .

Hello sayang . Today my cousin tunang . I actually taknak ikot . Then my abang merajok dengan I . So I ikot . Hmph ! I see no point of following . Tak uat pape pun . Lagi2 sebelah bapak I . Urgh . After that straight to Nex Mall and buy electronic things . Sayang ! I'm trading in my iPod 4 to iPod 5 !!! YAY ! Nasib boleh trade in ! HOORAY ! Anyway sayang , talking about tunang and all . . . Kalau you , you nak tunang atau terus nikah ? I'm asking only tau . Kalau I kan , I terus nak nikah . I dengan you da nak masuk 6 tahun , uatpe nak ikat2 lagi kan ? Terus nikah pun best . Tapi kalau lelaki lain . . . EH MANA ADE KAAAAAAN ! HEHE ! A week left until my school starts . URGH . Love you sayang . # Time : 3:01am It's morning . I just finished watching a love series . And now I'm typing all this in my computer to write to you . You know what it is right ? You know what I'm going to talk about right ? Anything involving Love , I will always th...

Hello sayangkuuu . Today is Aqilah's graduation day ! She grow up so fast ! Few more days she is going to be Primary 1 ! My family and I went to her school for graduation . And as per usual , she's the tallest among all the children . After that we all went Geylang to eat . And when I reached home at 2pm , I was worn out ! I slept at almost 5am and woke up at 6 plus . Then straight out to Aqilah's graduation . Ngantok giler sey sayang ! So right now it is 3am . I woke up at 8pm just now . So I belum ngantok lagi . But I think I'm going to sleep soon . Sayang , I have a feeling that your letter got rejected . That is why I didn't receive your letter for a long time . Ape sey you tulis kat letter tu ? I really did not receive it . ): Miss you a lot sayang ! LOVE YOU .

Right now it is EXACTLY 4:06AM ! I TAK BOLEH TIDUR ! I pusing beribu2 kali pun tetap tak terlelap2 ! Sayang nga mimpi pasal I eh ? People say , "If you can't sleep it is probably because you are awake in someone else's dream ." Kenape ni I takle tidur ?! Padahal I satu hari keluar sey ! Should have followed Zaim for a midnight movie sey ! Oh , tadi bila I nga shopping , Zaim message I ajak gi tengok midnight movie . But then die paisey sebab tak manis ajak perempuan keluar malam2 buta . AND RIGHT NOW I CANNOT SLEEP AT ALL ! ISH ! OH MY GOD !!! RIGHT NOW BARU I REALISED !!! (4:11AM) TODAY IS OUR DAY SAYANG ! OUR 5 Years 4 Months . HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE ! Okay dah ! Hee (: Hais , I wish I could sleep now . Nanti nak gi Aqilah nye graduation lagi ! Night sayang . Eh , bukan . Morning sayang ! :D

SAYANG ! I SURVIVED THE APOCALYPSE ! And if you don't know what that means . . . I SURVIVIED THE END OF THE WORLD ! Hahahahaha ! Why I said that ? Well because some scientist predicted that today is hari kiamat . But us Islam clearly know that IT IS NOT . What fools ! Anyway , WE WENT SHOPPING TODAY ! All bought new Denizens jeans and new phone covers . And today is also my parents' 22nd Anniversary ! My brother and I belanja family at Seoul Garden . After that we went groceries shopping at NTUC . So now I'm back home . And I am so angry that Vampire Diaries and Glee next episode is on January ! I da la excited nak tengok dari tadi ! Alahaisss . I miss you sayang . I still don't know when I'm free to meet you . Hais . . . LOVE YOU .

Hello sayangku ! I just came back from a family outing . Well , unfortunately I went MBS without you today . We just went to the skypark today . The view was awesome . But I know you are afraid of heights , I don't think you would like to go . Haha ! I went there with my heels today . I JUST LOOOVE MY NEW HEELS ! It feels so nice to walk in it ! I'm going to buy more of it now . . . Hehe ! (: After that we all went Nex and eat at MadJack . I remembered our last dinner together at that place . Takpe , soon we can go again kay ? Hehe (: Tomorrow we might go shopping ! B/c my mum dapat bonus , so ape lagi ??? Ketok my mum la ! HEHE ! LOVE YOU !

Now is after midnight . HOLIDAY IS BORING ! I swear to god it is really boring ! I did nothing much today . Stayed home the WHOLE DAY ! Since I flunked one of my module , I was thinking of studying . At least something to do during my holiday . Taknak waste time je lah . I don't want to repeat a semester please . My father ajak keluar tomorrow to MBS . I told him I don't want to go MBS because I want to go there with you first . Then he jeling at me . HAHA ! But really , I want to go there with you first before anyone else . Or maybe some other place perhaps ??? See first kay ? I have a lot of things planned out . You are going to love it ! Love you !

I visited you today sayang . I was afraid that I would be late . I was wearing my heels to see you . Haha . Since sayang kat dalam , I boleh pakai heels lah . Nanti you da keluar , heels I berabuk kat dalam almari . Kenapelaaa you pendek . HAHAHA ! You were afraid when I told you that I have something to tell you . Why were you afraid ? I can see it in your eyes that you were afraid that it is going to be a bad news . But it is only about Azrai sayang . Someone whom I throw away a long time ago . I might have loved him once . But please trust me when I say you are the only one . After that you keep on asking me whether ade orang kacau I ke tak . You keep on asking whether I have any other guy . I don't have one sayang . I really don't . Please keep your mind calm and don't think about this . I taknak you pikir pasal benda yang tak akan terjadi . YOU BONCET . B . O . N . C . E . T ! ! ! You seriously are . HAHAHAHAHAHAHA . You have more meat than me no...

Hi sayangkuuu ! I just came back from meeting Zaim . He just wanted to meet me . He quarreled with his parents I think . I miss you a lot sayang . I'm seeing you in less than 12 hours . I'm wearing my heels tomorrow ! Hehe ! There are many things I want to tell you . Hope you won't be mad . Anyway sayang , I don't think I would send you anymore letters soon . Maybe I'll stop in the mid of January . You pun da nak keluar kan sayang ? I feel like I'm the only girl in the world who give you letters every week . You pun naik bosan agaknye . YOU NYE LETTER WHERE ? HMPH ! Bye . Love you .

HAPPY 67th MONTHSARY SAYANG ! It's not that happy without you around though . AND IT IS NOT THAT HAPPY WITHOUT GETTING YOUR LETTER . AT ALL ! I'm so angry . But fine , today it's our day . Imma let that slip . I did nothing today . I'm so bored . I swear my life is much much boring than you . URGH . I'm going to sleep now . I'm so sleepy . And right now it is only 8:30pm . Bye . I am so so bored .

Today is 300 days without you . Three HUNDRED days . Can you even believe that ? I went out and watch another Breaking Dawn movie . But this time with Aini , Hazirah and Ira . After that we all just lepak . And guess what ? I wore heels the whole time . Haha ! I might be crazy but I look nice in it . Hais sayang , I'm so tired going through the letterbox and see no letters from you . Had a feeling you send letter to someone else than me . Your friends eh ? Da la , bye . Oh , tomorrow . . .

IT IS THE END OF ATTACHMENT SAYANG ! Okay , before I forget , I want to tell you something . Just now your mum called me . She told me about the 3 hours visit in January . I was excited because it was schedule on 16 JANUARY . SIXTEEN . BUT ! No outsiders allowed . Only family . But it's alright right ? You'll be out soon sayang . It's okay kay sayang . We'll be in each other's arms soon . I will always love you sayang . I miss you a lot . Sayang , do you remember the time when you got to know about Ahn ? I don't want you to remember about it actually . But I need you to know this . I don't know whether I did talk about this before . And if I did , sorry for repeating it again and again . I'm sorry for hurting you . I know how hurt you were when you knew about that . Your heart sank greatly . You could just stare at the ceiling . Nothing you could do to change what had happened . I know you hated me for what I did . Do not lie . Y...

I got my grades for attachment today ! I got a B ! Okay lah tuu . The teacher said I would have gotten an A . Because I was given a good feedback from a patient . But I told her too late . But it's okay . Tomorrow is the last day ! And GOODBYE ATTACHMENT AND HELLO HOLIDAY ! Hehehehe . But nothing special about the holiday since it's so boring without you . And again , nothing to tell you . Sorry kalau letter I boring . :/ LOVE YOU .

Sayang , today is 12/12/12 . Hehehehe ! Luckily today my father fetch me . I can never go home alone ever again . The place where I need to change bus is so creepy ! Sayang , attachment week is so busy ! I'm so tired . Just 2 more days left ! I can do this ! Still waiting for your surat . I don't know what to write anymore . Nothing so fun is happening . Wish you were here , always .

I went home ALONE today ! ): My dad takle amek sebab hujaaan ! Seram sey sayang . Walking home alone like that , make me think about the days you fetch me . Kalau you ade , I takkan balik sorang2 macam tuh . But sometimes walking home alone makes me think a lot about you . Pernah tak sayang terpikir , both of us are from two different worlds . I'm innocent girl , you're a bad guy . I gi madrasah , you puasa pun susah . I stay home every day before I met you , you are a nightlife person . Nothing in similar . We are completely opposite . But many people say , "Opposite attracts" That makes two of us . We've wasted almost 5 years of our life quarreling . And if we were to quarrel again after you keluar , I frankly have NOTHING to say about that . Love you .

Sayangkuuu !!! Hehe (: Miss you so much ! Nothing much I did today . Today I afternoon shift . It was really relaxing . Haha ! Nothing much to do there anyway . Sayang , budak attachment I semua nampak gambar you . They saw it from wallpaper handphone I . And all of them say you are so handsome . Then one of them say that I am lucky because I pretty and you handsome . I smack her and say I'm not that pretty . Hahahaha ! I would say thank you , but I don't really think I am . Dengan braces I kat mulut ni die kate lawa ? Blind or what ? I da penat ah asyik check mailbox , surat you takde . Sudah ah . Hmph !

HELLO SAYAAAAAAAAAANG ! Today was boring . Stayed home all day . Except for urut . My dad send me to a Spa at Kovan . They massage my whole body . And it was AWESOME ! Crack sana , crack sini . BESSSSTTT ! Angin I semua keluar . Kat perut A LOT of angin they said . So now I feel so much better . Anyway , WHERE IS YOUR LETTER ?! I tak dapat letter you langsung pun . Kalau sayang bagi kawan sayang bilang je la . You ni . -.- Tu pun nak tipu ke ? Masih nak tipu2 I eh . Da la , I bad mood ah macam ni . Hmph ! Merajok dengan you ! Bye ! Still love you though .

Sayangku ! Just to let you know , I'm much better now . I went to Health Check up at SATA Bedok today . I went with my mum aje . She was so funny the whole time . We were like mother-daughter bonding at that place . Anyway sayang , this health check-up is free . It's only for those who were chosen . And after the check-up they give us $80 each just because we participate . Best kan ? Hehe . Finally I ade duit for my next week attachment . After the check up we meet my siblings all at Nex for lunch . My mum were in a very good mood and she blanja us . Haha . So right now I'm on my bed as usual , thinking about you . Believe it or not , I'm thinking about Jommink . Do not tersengeh2 kat situ eh . Hmph . Da da , jangan sampai termimpi2 pulak . HAHAHAHAHAHA ! LOVE YOUUU .

Sayang , today it's 8 December . I'm writing this now because yesterday I was TOO SICK . I woke up early in the morning to go for my dental appointment . After that I went home to rest before going for my afternoon shift . My throat was getting worst every minute . When I reach KK for my shift , my throat is really bad . You tahu kan kalau tekak da sakit confirm demam datang kan ? At 4:00pm , I felt SO cold . I was down with fever . Tapi I taknak balik sebab I taknak kene bayar balik on Saturday . Lagi2 "A" class . The aircon was blasting . I could almost die in there . I told the staff nurse , so I didn't touch the baby at all . I just did some light duty . I didn't eat much too . I was too weak . And at that time , I was thinking of you . You mesti marah I sebab I refuse to go home . You mesti marah I sebab I am stubborn . But 3 hours left till my shift end . So and endure everything . And alhamdulillah I made it ! My father hantar I bali...

I'm writing this in the afternoon . Because I don't want to forget what we talked about just now . Hehe (: Okay , let see . . . Oh , your mum talked about Hatim . FOR THE WHOLE , ALMOST , 15 MINUTES . It was a little frustrating for me . Is it obvious that my face was really down ? I was really thinking at that moment , "Why must she ask the same question 3 times ?!" Takpe , next visit is going to be only YOU and ME . SAYANG ! YOU NAK KENEKAN I BALIK KAN ?! Sebab haritu I told you that my friends said that you are handsome . So now you kenekan I balik by saying your friends said that I'm pretty . YAAAAAAAAA RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT ! Bilang diorang , THEY ARE BLIND . And I WASN'T BLUSHING OKAY ! HMPH ! You tak baik sey sayang ! YOU TAKUT THAT MY FEELINGS WOULD CHANGE ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! Tahu pun takut ! Dulu tak kesah langsung ! Sayang , all I know is when I'm with you , I will be that Afiqah you knew 5 years ago . I ...

Hello sayang ! I've been playing The Sims the WHOLE day after I reached home . I AM VISITING YOU TOMORROW ! It is the first visit , so I hope your mum will NOT be late again . So anyway sayang , today I was assigned to be in the Nursery . And if you don't know , it's the room where they put the babies . I have to bathe the baby early in the morning . Then I have to take care of them every minute . I paling suka one of the baby boy . He really has the look . He's a Filipino . I selalu nak jaga die . Hehe (: When I look at him , I imagine how Rayyan will be . Okay , fine , I know what you will think . You will think I pikir jauh kan ? Whatever lah . Check2 you pun nak . Okay , I nak uat assignment I sikit . CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOUUU ! Muah muah !

Hey sayangku ! I'm so tried . I asyik lepas sampai rumah terus tertidur . Asyik tertidur aje . Today was as per normal . There isn't much to do in an "A" class ward . Tomorrow I pagi lagi . Hais , penaaat . Tapi takpe , this attachment 2 minggu je . After that HOLIDAY ! Abang you pun akan keluar soon kan ? Bila die da keluar , you are going to come out soon . CAN'T WAIT ! Love you sayang *Sorry kalau recently I type sikit2 , I am really tired .

My clinical attachment starts TODAY ! And I was really excited for it because I'm posted to KK ! And moreover it is "A" CLASS WARD ! Yay AIRCON ! BUT then , everything just turn my expectations around . Aircon was TOO COLD ! And I was having cough , so I tak boleh jaga tempat Nursery pun . The babies are all SO CUTE ! But since it's "A" class ward , orang2 kat sana semua sombong . I mean the patients . The nurses are all great ! Just the patients . Baru first day da banyak complain . Anyway , I booked to visit you on the 6th ! It's this Thursday . Can't wait ! LOVE YOU .

I AM SO TIRED . I AM SOOOOOOO TIRED !!! I thought the Marathon would be really fun . BUT NO . Nothing much to do there ! I sleep as soon as I  reached home . I woke up at 9 just now . I was really so sleepy at the Marathon . I will never do that ever again . It is really not fun ! NOT FUN AT ALL . Sayang , I read our blog again before I sleep . I guess I am always angry at you is because I never let go of the past . I remembered you said that before . i don't know why I am always thinking about our past and your past . Sometimes I really do hate it . But sometimes I just want to cry to tell myself that our love is still there . I love you Hilman . Only you . No one else matters .

I am at Shan's house right now . We have a little sleep over before going to help at a Marathon . I'm the Medical Team for the Marathon . We have to assemble at 4am . My shift starts at 6am - 12pm . Hopefully I won't get sleepy . Anyway sayang , today I watched Breaking Dawn Part-2 AGAIN ! Hehe (: I went with Dalila and Ernie . KECOH GILA ! Hehe (: I just LOVE being with them . They are like so fun to be with . I bought NEW HEELS ! Hehe (: SUKAAA SANGAT ! Okay lah sayang , nak relax jap sebelum pergi . Love you .