♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

Hey sayaaaaang ! I AM DONE WITH EXAM ! HOORAAAYYYY ! I went to Abang Hidir's birthday chalet today . It was really boring I tell you . I decided to leave early though . Malas ah nak layan kawan2 die semua . Merepek meraban ah diorang . You and your friends honestly are much cooler than them . Sayang , before going off to chalet , your mum called me and told me to some down to your house . It's about a letter they received . Hatim pinjam duit lagi . Dia belum bayar $500 . And they have to pay back by 7 days . Kenape dia takle bagi your mum hidup senang sikit ? Sedih I tengok your mum tau . We'll tell you everything on our next visit . Love you .

Hey sayang ! Can I not say too much today ? Haha ! Because my day was really BORING to the core ! I woke up today , did not study at all and play The Sims all day ! I just stop once or twice just to eat . Then I went back to playing The Sims again . Haha ! Ya allah ! Boringnye hidup aku . Hahahaha ! Kay dah ! I nak tidur . Besok LAST PAPERRR !!! YAYYY ! Tata ! Muahhh !

Hello sayang ! I woke up early today . But my bus wasn’t . So I was late for exam . But luckily I came 5 minutes late . I’m glad I was able to do my paper It wasn’t as easy as the first paper . But it was okay . I went straight home today . Nothing much I can do without you around anyway . My holiday mood is ON . Because my last paper should be easy . Gonna play TheSims now . As per usual . . . I know . Love you sayang .

I'm still studying like per usual sayang . What am I do to anyway ? Tomorrow is my 2nd paper . And next will be on Friday . And that will be my last paper before school holidays . Hais . . . Another school holiday without you around . Another boring holiday for me . My parents told me that my family and I will be going Indonesia . But I don't know whether I will be following or not . My school starts next year on 3rd of January . Sayang , with a blink of MY eyes , it will be January . I said my eyes because I will be busy for most of my days on December . I know it will be so slow for you since you have nothing much to do inside . Sayang , just for a little while . Just endure for a while . I'll be right here when you keluar , I promise . One day you will be counting down to your release date with only your 10 fingers . I will always love you sayang . I'll be going back to my studying . Love you .

Sayaaang . . . I'm taking a break from studying right now . I've been studying since 8pm . Right now it's 1:10am . Don't be angry okay sayang ? I know I've been sleeping late , but I need to . I have to pass my common test . I might be sleeping really late . Maybe at 5 ? Anyway sayang , GOOD NEWS , My paper just now was easy ! I manage to do each and every questions . My sleepless nights on the weekends really paid off ! Sayang , in EXACTLY 3 more months , I'll be in your arms again . I still remember when you were inside for the first 3 months . I was in attachment . I was crying too much . And then school starts . Things are still not good . But then slowly I make myself busy with a lot of things . And I was able to go on with my life without you . I am, stronger than I thought I was . I think I've been depending on you to do everything for me . And I didn't even thought of what if I do not have you one day . Since I'm more...

Oh my god sayang ! Today is my sister's concert ! Haha ! I did not know at all ! I thought it was next week . But don't worry I have all the videos for you . Haha ! She was so cute and PRETTY of course . There was this one play that she had to act . And she became the step mother of Cinderella . It was because she is tall . And she is too cute sey sayang ! SO CUTE ! Next year dia da Primary 1 . Time flies so fast sayang . Remember when we first started dating ? She was only 1 years old . And look how much she has grown ! If only time would fly faster right now and let you out now . Sayang , my parents are sending me for urut next week . My badan have too much angin . I'm getting rid of it all next week . I think that is why I've been very weak . Time to go back to studying . I miss you a lot sayang .

Hello sayang ! I would stop from studying just to write a letter for you ! So right now I am still studying . I'm like memorising loudly in my room Sayang , I really have a little confident for my paper . But I really hope that I can do it sayang . I need you right here with me when I'm studying . I have so much confident when you were around . Except when you disturbed me when I was studying by going under the table . Suke eh ? Remember my O'level ? I didn't think that I could pass because I got 19 for my N'level . And you were the only one there to make sure I'll pass . You are my good luck charm . And every single time before exam , you are going to tell me that I am able to do it . And that confidence made me really pass . But you are not here anymore . So all I have as my good luck charm is your necklace and bracelet . And it have been helping me for 3 examination periods . Hopefully I'm able to do the next one . I LOVE YOU .

Sayang , yesterday I tak tidur sampai 5 pagi . And it was totally worth it ! My teacher really love our presentation ! Sayang , I dont know whether this is stupid or what . But wearing your bracelet and necklace always gives me luck . If I weere to forget it , I would have a bad day . I need you to be with me . And if just wearing those would make me feel that way , I would . I'm going to continue to study now . It's 4:12am by the way . I have been studying since 12am . Sayang , wish me good luck for common test kay ? It's this coming Monday . I miss you .

Right now it's 3:51am sayang . I am struggling right with my presentation for tomorrow . Anywayyy . . . I'VE WATCHED BREAKING DAWN PART 2 ! OH MY GOD SAYANG ! IF YOU WERE TO WATCH IT , YOU ARE GOING TO LOVE IT TOO ! I'm going to watch it again soon . Hehe (: As usual sayang , whenever I watch a love story , I will always think of you . Watching Breaking Dawn makes me think a lot about you . Edward is too protective over Bella . But after knowing that Bella is able to protect herself , he let go a little . Sayang , I want you to be like Edward . I mean not literally . But just want you to not worry about me every time . You have been gone for 9 months now . And I'm still doing well . I am still staying strong , I am still leading my life as per normal , I still love you . But you have to know that if you see me like a different person when you are out , I'm sorry . I love you .

I RECEIVED YOUR LETTER TODAY SAYANG ! I was so hopeless last week . I was thinking that you used all the letters to send it to your friends . Sayang , you made me cry when you wrote this: "First very important and a compulsary thingy to do upon my released date, approach to my mum, seek for forgiveness and after that, approach to my sayang, hug her, kiss her and make her smile and stay happy always.. Anything for you sayang, once I'm out of here.. I promise.. Hold on to my promises.." Sayang , I really would love that . You were like that once upon a time . But you change . You know that right sayang . Sayang , I know you were too addicted to it . I know it myself but I convince myself every single day that you are telling me the truth . Even when I know that you were lying to me . Suka tipu eh ? Hmph ! Sayang , Aqilah miss you too sayang . She has been asking when will you be out . She keep on asking me sayang . She saw her name in the letter , then she...

It's 11:15 right now and I just reached school . Today's visit was the most happiest visit ever ! I cannot stop laughing . Why are we both so happy today ? Starting2 you da uat I ketawe pasal your shaving time . You semalam sampai ade feeling yang today I akan visit you . And you said every single time before I visit you , you mesti mimpi pasal I . You always ade firasat2 ni semua . Dulu bila dengan ex you semua , you ade rasa macam gini tak ? If not , is our love that strong ? Honestly sayang , I really did not wear any make up today . I did not even do much with my hair . I'm touched when you said : "I fall in love dengan you dari dulu . You pun macam gitu . Tetap I sayang you . You boleh kate I buta ke ape . But pada I you memang lawa." Thank you sayang . You made my day , Since you kate I lawa , I pun nak comment sikit ah tentang you jugak . YOU SUKE EH BILA I KATE KAWAN I SEMUA KATE YOU HANDSOME ! SUKE KAAAAAAAAAAAAN ?!!! Hmph ! And you told...

HELLO sayaaaaaaaaang ! Another week starting again . I have to wait for another 12 more weeks till you'll be out . I'm seing you in less than 12 hours . Your mum have not replied my message yet . So I don't know whether she is coming with me or not . Sayang , just now Amalina came over to my house for help with her work . We are now like before sayang . But I don't really think that I would be so close with her ever again . Maybe just as friends . I didn't do much today . So , I kinda don't know what to say anymore . Hee ! Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to see you . Hopefully your mum won't cancel . MISS YOU .

Fuyoh ! I just finished my 1400 words of essay that is due tomorrow . I started at 9:40 and finished at 12:30 . I am just AWESOME kan ? Hehehe (: Did I tell you that my cousins Yaya and Nisa sleepover at my house on Friday till today ? We had a lot of fun dancing and gossiping the whole day . Haha ! And guess what ?! Yaya installed ALL The Sims for me ! YAY ! So as you know me , I will be stuck to computer for a few days . Why letter sayang belum sampai ?!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ? I'm seeing you in 2 days or maybe 1 more day since right now is already Monday . But I still have not get your letter yet sayang . I miss you a lot . Aqilah still missing you sayang . She was still asking whether will you be out on her birthday . I said no . Then she was like , "Awww maaaaan . . ." Hahaha ! I miss you too much sayang ! LOVE YOU .

Sayaaaang ! Today I am CPR CERTIFIED . I don't really know what it is called . But it basically means I can do CPR to anyone . Hehehehehe ! I went for a test and practical test in school today . I'm the first to get certified ! I am so proud of myself . Hehehe . Sayaaang . I masih tunggu surat you . Mane eh sayang ? You tulis kat pompan lain ke ni ? I hari2 check mailbox . I nak dengar dari youuu . I miss you too much ! Hais . Anyway , after the test I went over to Shan's house for Deepavali . Rumah die is SO GORGEOUS . Hehe . I stayed there till 10+ and reached home at 12 . As per usual my dad bising2 . But it's okay . It shows he cares . Miss you a lot sayang !

SAYANGKUUU ! HAPPY 5 YEARS 6 MONTHS ! Nothing much happen today sayang . You know what sayang , I had a crazy thought this afternoon . I was thinking of going to East Coast Park . I know it is stupid kan ? Haha ! I was so tired and I was thinking of that . Tadi at school I watched all our videos . It brings back a lot of memories sayang . Remember our trip to Changi Village ? It was really so fun ! And remember you model at Esplanade Park ? I miss those times sayang . When you keluar , lets live like those days again . I miss our honeymoon days . The innocent love we had . I miss you a lot sayang .

Hello sayaaang . Today my school started at 4 and ended at 6 ! Only two hours of lesson in school ! Hehehehe ! Best tau ! I'm sorry about yesterday's post . I was crying so badly . Ignore that . Really . And guess what ? I PASSED MY PRACTICAL TEST ! Your luck for me still LIVES ! I was really cocked up during the test ! But I manage to pass ! Alhamdullah ! Sayang right now it is pass midnight . . . HAPPY 66th MONTHSARY SAYANG !!! Hehe . Love you ! Mmmuah !

The last 10 minutes I've been on the bed thinking of you . A million and one questions filled my mind . Why do you have to lie ? Why did I do to deserve this now ? Why must you always hurt me this bad ? After all you did to me , is your love even real ? How can I trust you that it is real this time ? How can I stop thinking about all this sayang ? How ? Tell me how sayang . Am I a fool to fall for you ? Do I look so stupid that you can cheat and lie to me all the time ? Why me ? Compare me and your exes , I'm the one that you hurt the most . Why ? I think you just ignore this . You are just so good at ignoring right ? Bye .

Happy Deepavali sayaaaaang ! Hehe (: Today is TGIF - Today Got Indian Festival ! Hehe (: Anyway , my cousins came over today . We played kinect all day . I was suppose to study for tomorrow's practical test . But they came , so I ape lagi , enjoy je ah . Hehe ! As usual , they all came to discuss about my cousin's wedding . But since tu semua orang tua nye hal , yang lain semua main game je ah . Bising satu rumah ! Atuk I join sekali ! Cute gilerrr sey Atuk I ! My uncles and aunties pun join joget2 . Hais . . . I miss the fun I had with you . One day , we will have the time of our lives ! But for now , all we can do it wait . I will always love you sayang . I will always wait for you .

Tomorrow is Deepavali ! IT'S HOLIDAY ! YAY ! But gonna stay home and study . Sayang , it got me thinking . Bila you belum masuk and you are still next to me everyday , I cheat on you not once , not twice but three times . I hurt you a lot of times . Too much that I myself can't count . But why when you are not here in my sight at all , I didn't even cheat on you ? I did not even think of cheating on you . I cannot even think of one time that I gatal dengan laki lain bila you kat dalam . Sayang , I want to be with you forever . Believe me , I want to . But (I really wish there isn't a "but") are you sure you can support me in the future ? When I was young , yes , all I think about is Love . All I need is your love . And when our love is perfect , all I need to know now whether are you up for an eternal love ? I'm 19 right now sayang . I want to study first before thinking about all of this . And I don't want you to think that I pentin...

Another week done and tomorrow is a new week starting . How are you sayang ? I'm much better now . But I'm still sleeping with pills . I can't sleep without taking my pills . Stayed home today . I read all the letters I given you . Sayang , I really cannot believe that it has been 9 months without you . 3 more months till you are out . And I don't know what I should do when you are out . Anyway sayang , my practical test is in 3 more days . I need your luck again . ): Hopefully I can pass without your luck . I miss you too much sayang . I'll be seeing you in a week time . I just wish I could see you once a week at least . I miss you sayang .

Sayang ! Today it is 10/11/12 . Hehe . Just telling you only . I miss you sayang . I just played kinect just now . I am so tired . I'm going to sleep soon I guess . Sayang , do you remember my letters that you asked me to keep ? I put them in a file . So every night , I'll just flip it open and read . Those are like my bedtime stories . My bedtime LOVEstories . It's much much more intesting than Twilight Saga . Hehe (: It feels like you are going out soon . But the nearer the date of your release , The slower the time gets . Please be fast . I need you back . Love you .

I should be sleeping by now . But I can't . Anyway , hello sayangkuuu ! I just took my medicine just now . So I'll be asleep in a few minutes . Maybe in an hour or so . I'm going to read through some stuffs now since I am unable to sleep . But after I write this letter of course . Sayang , I've been thinking about the day when you're out . I don't know how to react . I should be happy . But I know I'll be crying too . Hais , just thinking of you makes me cry so bad right now . Da 8 bulan you kat dalam , I nangis macam you baru masuk . Kadang I sendiri tak tahu kenape I tiba2 nangis . But I've been smiling a lot lately . And of course it's because of you too . I keep on imagining you surprising me at my doorstep . At the thought of that always makes me smile . My friends sampai kate I da gile . Haha ! I miss you too much sayang . I'm hopelessly devoted to you .

Hey sayang ! I don't know what I'm doing . I should just let my secondary school life just go away from me . But I keep on letting them in . I don't mind being with Aini or Ira but not Nazeefah or Hazirah . Actually Hazirah is okay , but not Nazeefah . What am I even doing ?! Please come back here sayang . I don't want them around . Why do I even bother talking to them in the first place ? Tomorrow there will be a huge test ! And I'm not even prepared yet . Kalau sayang ade , I always have the motivation to study . But sayang is just not here . I have to stay like this till you are out . Sayang , I love you .

Sayang , I didn't go school today . I'm too weak to go anywhere . But I have to get an MC . So I went to polyclinic . I have to check my heart too . I took an ECG to check my heart . It looks normal at first . But when I look at it again , there isn't any "P-wave" present . It is something I learn in my class . Something is wrong with my atria in my heart . The doctor referred me to cardiologist in Tan Tock Seng . Sayang , hopefully nothing serious is going to happen . I'm really scared . I don't wanna think about it . Dari dulu I told my parents to check at polyclinic , tapi tak pergi pun . Hopefully it is not too late . Sayang doakan I kay ? I love you sayang . I love you so much .

Sayang , now it is  2:55pm  . And I just reached home .  I should have listened to you just now when you told me to go home . You know me too well that I'm going to be sicker later . And see what happen i I didn't listen to you . SORRY . Just now I was too weak to even go home from school .  So I took taxi home . I am going to rest now . I'll write more when I wake up at night . I love you sayang . Sayang , I went to eat dinner with Abang Hidir just now . He belanje , so why not kan ? Haha . Daerah my house aje since he knows I'm sick . I'm sleeping soon . But before that I'm going to talk about today's visit . Sayang , I know you kat dalam risau pasal I . And I know you risau about our relationship too . But you need to trust me when I say I love you and only you . Don't be paranoid okay sayang ? Cinta I tetap akan untuk you . Insyallah sayang dapat kumpul duit untuk kahwin kay ? Lagi 3 more years eh ? Tak...

Hello sayangku !  I realised that in around 15 more weeks , I’ll be seeing you !  Can’t wait you feel you in my arms once again .  I’m very sick right now .  I’m down with a slight fever and a bad running nose .  Hopefully I’ll be fine by tomorrow because . . .  I’M SEEING YOU TOMORROW SAYANG !  Your mum just called me and say that she is not able to visit you .  So it will be ONLY you and meee !  Then after visiting you , I’ll be going straight to school . Sayang , 2012 is really a bad year for me .  And when you keluar ,  I really hope that I can forget about 2012 because I really suffers a lot sayang .  But it is also the year that I made a lot of friends  and discover more things that I can do which I didn’t know I could .  Furthermore knowing that you trust me and love me till the end  makes me stronger and never give up on everything . When you left for the first time in ...

Hello sayangkuuu ! Today as per usual it's family day . I'm lazy to talk about all that anyway . I'm seeing you in 2 more days . And in that 2 more days will be the day my brother go NS . Pelan2 kayoh ah die ! Haha ! I'm going to miss him ! Another guy in my life will be gone . But he'll be back in 2 weeks I think . Sayang , since you da tak kerja kat kitchen lagi , you uatpe ? Bangun , tidur , makan je ke ? Nanji badan macam gorilla how ? Hehe ! Tomorrow another week of school . Hais , this semester is really stressful sey sayang . I think I really need to concentrate in my work and really do it well . I think I will start doing it tomorrow . Sayang , I don't want you to worry about my heart okay sayang ? I taknak you kat dalam pikir2 bukan2 pasal I . Hopefully I akan sembuh kay sayang ? Insyallah . I'll try to sleep now . I miss you , Love you !

Hey sayang ! Right now I'm watching TV . I didn't go anywhere today . Bored at home . Sayang , just now I watched Vampire Diaries . I don't know why but whenever everytime I see Stefan and Elena love , I think of you . You were like that with me . And I miss everything that we did together . Sayang , sekarang da November . I suffered since February . And I left with 4 more months till I feel you one again . I think I wanna quit smoking now . So that when you keluar , none of us will smoke . You won't smoke again kan ? Love you sayang .

It's 2:47am right now . I just came back from lepaking with Aini, Ira and Hazirah . Reunion je sayaaang . But trust me sayang , I won't be like last time . I'm not stupid like last time . I won't let them step over me . Today I went to meet my ITE friends at ITE Simei . It was awkward coming in ITE . I don't really know why but it is just too awkward . Haha ! I just lepak dengan diorang first before going to meet my secondary school friends . Right now my heart is in pain again . I guess I eat my medicine now before I sleep . Love you sayang .

I didn't go to school today . I had MC because of yesterday . I was too scared to even leave my house . I'm afraid if anything happen to me outside , no one can help me . Sayang , I'm really scared . Doa2kan I selamat kay sayang ? Doa2kan I penyakit ni hilang kay ? I just took my medicine . It really makes me drowsy . That medicine makes me sleepy . I cannot just always rely on the medicine for me to sleep . I need to cure fast . I miss you sayang .

It's 3:10 right now and I need you to be here ! Why did you leave me like this ? Something is wrong with my heart right now . It's making me dizzy . It's making me breathless . My heart is very pain . When I'm about to sleep , it stopped again . My hands and feet are partially numb . If today is my last day , ya allah , please let me say goodbye to you at first . Please . I love you sayang . If I didn't survive this , I want you to know that I've been loving you even when you left . I love you Hilman .