He's in again .

I was doing a surprise for you .
I was going to surprise you with something .
But then at night , at around 9 ,you called and say that you are going in again .

I can't believe it . And I regret never got to say , "ILoveYou" before you hang up .
My mind went blank . Total blank .

I just sat where I was for a minute to digest everything that I just heard .

You told me to see your mum the next morning .
But I can't wait . I went to your house straight after that .

In the bus , I was crying .
I don't want to think that you are going to sentence to death .
I'm afraid . I felt numb .
Really really numb .

When I reached your house , your mum invited me in and told me what had happened .

Police came to your house , you were in the toilet .

They crash it open and see you took drugs .

Drugs . Why again ? Why did you do it again ?

I talked to your mum the whole night . I refused to go home .

I was hoping you will at least get bailed .

Don't you think about me ?

Don't you think how I am going to live in this world without you ?

I got a message from you at 10:46 :

"Jage diri baek2. Ni I. Tgu I lau bleh. I sygkan u! Minta maaf."

My heart sank greatly .
You are not coming back to see me .
You are going in .

At 12:40 , Madan and Hatim arrived home .
Hatim said that you are going to DRC .

When I asked him what's that , he said you kene setahun .
I cried instantly . Right there , infront of your family , I cried .

I let everything out . I cried so hard .
Why did you have to leave ?

Why sayang ?

I went home after that .

I didn't get to sleep at night .

I was thinking of you .

I feel empty right now .
Very empty .