Lies

I thought I will never think of breaking up .
But I just did .

How I wish one day you will tell me everything and never tell me lies .
I know you have some secrets hidden from me .
Secrets that you think it will hurt me .
So, don't worry, everyone have secrets .
I won't ask you if you don't want to tell me .

Everyday I feel like our relationship are nearly over .
Sooner or later you or I will ask for break up .
I wanted to feel as if there are no problem between us .
But when we are so happy and so sweet together,
problem will attack us in just a little time .

Why Hilman ?

I want to be with you forever .
But being with you like this till after marriage would be a problem .
You can't just follow your friends everytime .

My heart sometimes feel like breaking up .
But I know it will hurt me so much if we break up .
I don't know whether you will be hurt or not because you don't seem to care .
You will start cursing me up and down if I do something wrong .
But did I ?
Have I ever curse you when we are quarreling ?
I don't think so .

Girls are the most hated things I want to hear from you .
If we are not fated, I want to see you happy with the other girl .
Let me suffer in silence without you being there by my side .
I know now you are not contacting with any girls .
But if one day you do it again , I won't trust you anymore .

I don't know whether I love you alot like last time .
I never feel the love when I'm with you anymore .

If we ever break up one day ,
I want you to know that you are the only guy I really love .
You are the guy I can share my problem with .
You are the guy that showed me the meaning of love .

Hilman,
I tried being the girl you want .
I wanted to stop smoking .
I want to be the good girl .
But knowing you never change made me stress and doing stupid stuffs .
Tell me if you don't like what I am doing right now, and I can stop .

Love is blind .