Ranting

Hilman ,
Can I stop loving you and leave you just like that ? I think KNOW we will not last forever . With your attitude and behavior like that , I do not think there are even the feeling live in you . You said you love me , but never show . You said you care for me & you said you missed me . But you seem like you never want to meet me at all . Yesterday you carried my heavy bag to interchange and back again . You said that it was okay . You said you could carry it . But what I see is that you kept on changing sides which means your shoulder was painful . I asked for the bag but you refused and you said you don't want my shoulder to hurt . But you never said that sweetly . You said it as if I did something wrong . At night you called me and you said you missed me a lot of time my I refused to answer . BECAUSE you never answer me EVERY TIME I asked you that kind of question . You said that I was 'action' . At least better than yours . Yesterday I jokingly said that I will only wear 'That' when I am married to you . But you kept quiet . So I said (seriously , honest) that I do not care if I am married to you or not . AND I do not want to marry you if you do not want to . Then you said you were tired repeating the same things you told me . Whatever (exactly what I said)

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