♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

Can you be there for me right now ? Your answer : No . My heart hurts without you around . You don't understand at all .

I told you to cover it up 2 years ago . TWO YEARS AGO ! I do want you to cover that name . But not when I feel like I am forcing you to do it . I want you to willingly do it for me . Not like you were forced and unwillingly doing it . That is what I feel . You told me like you macam nak, tak nak hilangkan nama tu . So seriously , I gave up . Your Money , Your Tattoo . Do what you want . Still, I love you .

You promised not to even look at other girls/woman . Next time don't you promise me anything if you can't even do it . Promise me something and you did not even do, it hurts a lot more . Remember we quarreled about you glimpsing at a girl several times ? It was actually your fucking fault but you shouted at me instead ! You don't know how bloody angry I was but I don't want to make things worst . YOU LOOK AT GIRL AND I'M THE ONE WHO GOT SCOLDED ?!!! What the hell ? This time , I don't want to care . You hurt me again . You promised to let me be happy . Again , you broke your promise . Go ahead with the one you love to stare at and leave me . If that make you happy , I'm speechless .

I am sorry for hurting you . I am sorry for not trusting you . I am sorry for making you angry . I am sorry for not believing in you . The most important part was I am sorry for hurting you . But sometimes you are the one who hurt me without knowing it . Let me list all of it . : you look at girls : you still have Lisa's name : you left me alone and go with your friend : you still take drugs when I told you not to ! Don't you realized it yet ? I love you Hilman but you never listen to me . :( Hais . .

I am sick . -Fever -Sore Throat -Running Nose -Body Ache -Headache I am scared of leaving you one day . I want us to at least get married before I die . Yesterday I cried because I was thinking about what if you die . I cannot live in this world without you . But what if I die ? What will you do ?

How can I go on with my life without you ? Tell me how ? I am thinking about you now . Thinking of what if one day you meet a girl and love at first sight ? Seriously , I cannot do anything . I will just cry till I die . I cannot live in a world without the love of my life . There are girls out there prettier than me . There are girls out there sexier than me . There are girls out there hotter than me . There are girls out there cuter than me . There are girls out there whiter than me . If one day you fall in love with any one of the girls , I promise you I will not change my mind about killing myself . I will really kill myself . If I can , I want to kill myself infront of you . I want to show you how much I really love you . If you don't believe me . Try to do it one day , and see you will be haunted by me one day . I love you too much .

You said all this : I nak uat apa2 semua untuk you . : I nak berubah . Taknak marah2 tak tentu pasal . Sekarang you marah I pun akan cakap sorry and senyum je . : I dah taknak kuatkan suara kat you lagi . I nak kasi you happy je selalu sekarang . : I sanggup buat apa2 untuk orang yang paling I sayang sekali . I takde niat jahat, dendam and apa2 lagi terhadap you . But when I asked why now then you nak berubah, you said . : Bukan dulu I taknak uat you. Jangan pikir gitu. Dari dulu I memang nak gitu dengan you. But takes time kan . Manusia tak terlepas dari kesilapan. I sayang you , Trust me. Then I asked what do you hate about me, you said . : Takde kebencian I terhadap you sekali pun. please jangan tipu I lagi, I tak suka . I have been waiting for you to be like this. I know one day you will berubah . And the day is today ! I want you to stay like this . I don't want you to change to the worst . I know there is something inside of you looking for a way to come out . And there you a...