Our final months

I don't know how much more nonsense I could handle .
Since the day I knew that he went back to taking it , our relationship was going haywire .
I tried my best to stop him from taking it . But nothing I do could stopped him .

We were on and off for 4 months now .
I don't know whether there is still Love .
But I know that no matter what , I will still love him .

Come on , I waited for him for a year while he was in prison .
There is my proof of my love towards him .
But where's his proof ?
The only thing that he would say , "I kalau tak sayang , da lama I tinggalkan ."
That would be his exact words .

He did everything that the worse boyf could ever do .
Except for cheating and beating me .
He lied . He used me . He threatened me . Vulgar language at every sentences .
Don't ask me why I still love him .
I just do . Because I know , somewhere inside of him , there is still hope for us .

He tried to change .
He succeed once . But then that thing took control again .

Right now , it is over , again .
I don't know whether he'll find me back again .
Because the way he talked to me yesterday was really - - - Cino .
My worst nightmare .

But whatever that will happen , now or in the future , I really hope he is happy .
I'll be happier seeing him happy .
. . . Even if it is not with me .