Day 240

HAPPY 65 MONTH-SARY BELOVED !

I have A LOT of things to say today .

I'm feeling a little bit down right now .

I just need to share with someone .

I'll tell you everything that happened today .

1st :

I woke up feeling nice about today .

It is our special day , how can I not be happy about today right ?

Then I took the same bus as Amalina , I waved at her happily .

But she waved at me like , "Oh , hi ."

So I didn't bother to even say anything else or even sit beside her .

2nd :

Someone who I never considered her as friend was pissed off at us .

It was just because we keep on talking about Cambodia .

I was quite angry about it ah but I just forget about it .

Let her be ! Jealous say jealous AH !

3rd :

Hakim and Zaim just not being like a bestfriend since I came back from Cambodia .

They have been busy whenever I asked whether all of us could meet .

Why so sudden so busy ?

4th :

This was what that is making me so down right now .

Abang Hidir nye abang meninggal dunia .

He died the day before I went to Cambodia .

The last time I talked to him was during Hari Raya month .

And I cannot believe he is gone .

He hanged himself . That was the shocking part .

Abang Hidir and I suspected that he killed himself because of his ex .

I was really heartbreaking hearing that .

And of all together that happened , it is on MY SPECIAL DAY .

Why everyone is doing this to me ?

I want to cry . I feel like crying .

But nothing is coming out right now .

I need you .

I need you badly sayangku .