Selamat tengah malam sayang ! Haha ! I tadi satu hari kat luar . My dad ade reunion dengan kawan secondary school . So I reach home at around 11:50pm . Sayang , I baru lepas solat . And everytime lepas I habis solat , I mesti nangis teringatkan you . I banyak doa untuk you sayang . Every single time I doakan you , I mesti nangis . Do you see how deep is my love for you sayang ? I love you so much sayang . Sayang , bila you da keluar , we change everything kay ? We change ourselves . We change the way we live . We change our attitude kay ? I taknak gaduh2 lagi . I takut nak gaduh lagi . See what happened when we asyik gaduh je . You are now gone and I'm alone . Itu ke yang you nak ? I can't wait for your next letter sayang . MISS YOU ! ):
ingat tk hari ni? i ngan eu gdoh? da one week kiter gadoh. and it is so not because of me! never because of me! eu suka uat joke yang menyakitkn hati i! i sabar eu. yela. eu smua betul i smua salah pe. i tawu eu perfect... tk ya bilangg. nothing i do is ever right! i hate myself. when eu kater i salah, i will just hurt myself psl eu nye hati sakit psl i pe. i always thaught liddat. i tried to be like eu. tk kesah psl i; never want to confess u are wrong.; and never LOVE me. i noe you've been lying to me all this while. i noe we are nearly one year. kalao eu masih ngn i psl janji kiter tu uat per? means eu tk ikhlas ngn i kan? am i stupid?!
i fucking love u tapi u tk kesa. everyday i tk pena lupa nk kate i sayang eu. skarang sape yang sayang sape? nothing i do is right! yela... smua i salah pe... smua eu btol pe. everyday i cry bout eu. hoping besok eu tkkn give up kn i. i nk kiter slalu senyum je. tapi kadang i yang uat hal. haiis itu i nye fault. tapi biler nga happy2. eu bring my mood down. sape tk marah kn? itu pasal i slalu pikir ukan2. and eu. klao i tk sayang eu. i skarang da cari laki laen la eu. apsl i tkde laki laen? OBVIOUSLY i sayangkn eu kn?! haiis. i da tk nk waste my time lagi la kate i sayang u ni smua. feeling macam i da tk guna dlm hidup eu lagi per! just hoping one day before i die eu get to read this blog. I LOVE EU HILMAN! I REALLY2 DO!
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