1st Day

Morning was not good .

Been thinking about you the whole day .

In the bus , I was reading all the messages you have given me .

Obviously I cried .

But then I stop . I don't think it's good to cry while going to school .

I don't want people to ask .

I received your message .

You did not even message me ILOVEYOU .

All you said was , you are already in court and you will update me later .

And that was your last message .

I thought I would get another message from you .

But no . :(

At 4:19 PM , I received a message from Hatim .

And he said you are in for a month .

I don't know how to react .

All I did was cry , cry , cry .

I need some time alone .

I have to think .

What am I going to do when you are gone ?

Only study , study , study ?

I need to have fun too .

But I guess I shouldn't .

Because you are inside suffering and I can't be outside having fun .

I went downstair alone .

I can't stand even one day not hearing your voice !

It can make me so so crazy like hell !

4 hours I was alone @ void deck .

I know I can't just follow my emotions .

I have to be strong .

I have to be strong , FOR YOU .

At night , I reread your messages again .

I can't help myself but cry again .

1 month may sound like a short time .

But for me to lose you for a month , it just feels like a year !

I miss you alot Hilman .

Come home fast . I need you here with me .