He really do love me .

For 3 days straight I was not able to sleep .
I tried to think that you love me .
But it was impossible .

I got rid of Zaim who was my best friend .
A friend who was there for me when you were mad at me .
A friend who understood me alot when there were problems .
A friend who care alot for me .
A friend who I have been with for nearly 5 years .
The only friend I could trust for my whole life .
And I got rid of him because of you .

I got rid of him as soon as possible because of you .
Because I know I could still live without him .
And because I know I could die without you .

And you promised when I got rid of Zaim, you will change .
But you did not . You were still the same .
I was patient . I try to be but I just could not .

At night I messaged you twice but you did not reply .
I was bloody angry, so I messaged Nazeefah .
At last when I told you what it was about , you wanted to know .
It was about Zaim .

You said I still need Zaim .
I swear for my whole entire life ! I do not need him .
But if you treat me like I am a no-one to you,
I will try to find a friend who understands me . And only one, Nazeefah .

But then you promised that you will not ever scold me at all .
Are you sure ?
What if you did ? You break your promise again you know ?!
I want you to mean whatever you said .
I don't want it to be some kind of STMF !

You said : I berubah k. I JANJI.

You janji , you promised !
And please , remember your promise .
Let see when I meet you .