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I lost to it . It wins . YOU win .

It was just a normal day like any other days . I woke up early to see him . I brought all my scrapbook equipments so that I could at least do something at his house . Oh and you have NO idea how heavy it was ! Everything seems normal . He helped me with my scrapbook . We laugh . We kid around . It was perfectly normal ! Until when I was finding for him and he wasn't around . Since CNB came over to his house , he is very cautious . He would always stand at the window and look out for them . But he wasn't there when I was finding for him . So I called for him . His mother said that he is in his room . He came out and I saw something that I know he is taking it . I pretended that I didn't know . I kept it inside of me . After I kept all of my things away , I approached him at the window . Me : You took it again right ? Him : Ape you ? Me : Stop pretending that you don't know . Him : You merepek ah you . Me : Siape yang merepek ? I or you ?! He kep...

Our final months

I don't know how much more nonsense I could handle . Since the day I knew that he went back to taking it , our relationship was going haywire . I tried my best to stop him from taking it . But nothing I do could stopped him . We were on and off for 4 months now . I don't know whether there is still Love . But I know that no matter what , I will still love him . Come on , I waited for him for a year while he was in prison . There is my proof of my love towards him . But where's his proof ? The only thing that he would say , "I kalau tak sayang , da lama I tinggalkan ." That would be his exact words . He did everything that the worse boyf could ever do . Except for cheating and beating me . He lied . He used me . He threatened me . Vulgar language at every sentences . Don't ask me why I still love him . I just do . Because I know , somewhere inside of him , there is still hope for us . He tried to change . He succeed once . But then that thi...