We broke up on the 13th March . We broke up about the same thing again and again . But last night was amazing . I promised myself that that was going to be the final break up . And I will never see him ever again . My heart yearned for him . My skin crave for him . I can't live without him . I knew that all along . But every single time I think about what he did to me , I would hate him so much . But just that night , I remove all my hate towards him . I forget everything he did to me . I kept aside all my memories of him hurting me . Just that night I want him so badly . I texted him : Don't sleep tonight . I need your help . Please ? He was worried and wanting to know what was happening . I wanted to surprise him . That was just a little prank for him to not sleep yet . I went out at 11pm . I reached his house at 11:45pm I texted him : Are you still awake ? He replied : Yes , can you please tell me was is wrong ? You are making me worried I replied...
DAY 1 i pegii skola rase very worried. in bus i nangis. i just hope eu will get at least onli 15 days. turun bus, cari ira for her hp then call eu. i dengar ur voice, i felt happy. after flag raising ceremony, i asked for ira's hp lagi. i call eu and hear ur voice again. i feel relax. after english class, i call eu. eu angkt again. eu waiting for the news. i da doa2 eu dpt light punishment. after maths class, i call eu. eu kater to call eu back later. i said okae after eu hang up. the next CALLS, eu didnt even pick up. but ur hp is still on. so i thaught eu nga bbl ngn ur officer luhs. during literature class. i got ur message tht says... "Jaga diri baik2 sygku.. i akn rindu u.. i duduk dlm 40 ari..i syg u" i nangis like hell hearing that. the last call i got from eu is after maths class. and i will never hear from eu for the next 40 days. my friends pujuk i, i cannot take it. i nangis tersedu-sedu. everyone hug me. and tell me to be strong. but i cant eu. i nangis smpai ...
Sayang , I want you to read this when you wake up . And please , let me know your reply . Or at least tell me what you really wanna tell me okay ? Here goes . I love you . I truly do love you . Even words can't describe how I really love you . You never once bought me flowers , you never once look me in the eye for a long time and tell me how much you love me , you never once bring me to a surprise , you never once look at me like how I look at you and much more . Those are the things I want to see from a guy . But even if you never once done it , my love is never less . I cried thinking about what I did to you . I am incredibly sorry for what I did . I played with you . I cheated you with some other guys . The worst that I did was to share my love for you with some other guy . But you stayed . You still stay because you know deeply that my love for you is eternal . I cannot imagine my life without you . You changed me . And I'm thankful for that . You made me become so...
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