Small mistake can be a BIG one .

Click HERE and see what I meant by yesterday's fight .

I was hungry . I said that TWICE .

But you insist on staying @ home .

You said , "Tunggu sampai cerita ni habis eh ?"

And it was like another 30 minutes more .

I said again , "I lapar , you"

Still , you are sitting on the sofa .

Then you saw me angry .

That was when you finally wanted to go down and buy for me something .

Then I said , "Tak payah la . I tak lapar . I nak tengok cerita ni"

And you insist on going .

I repeat that almost 5 times but still you took my money and put on your shirt .

I said , "You nak gi mane ?"

Then you said that you are going down and buying for me food .

I repeat to you that there is NO NEED to buy for me anything .

You threw the money after that .

HOW DARE YOU ?!

I packed up all of my things and you were beside me picking up my money for me .

You said , "You da nak balik ?"

I kept quiet .

After I packed my stuffs , I headed for the door and you were there blocking me .

I said , "Don't touch me ! I want to go home !"

I repeat that line so many time .

And you said , "Ape salah I uat ? Bilang I !"

You also repeated that so many times .

And my answer was my repeated words above .

Until I was leaned on the wall , he punched the wall , TWICE .

My heart stopped .

I reached for his hand but he moved away .

I cried , seeing him hurt himself like that .

He cried , frustrated with himself .

Sadly , I followed my emotions and forget that he was hurt .

In my head was only this , "I want to leave this place." Repeatedly .

He said , "Angin ape ni you ?! I tak tau jenis apa uh you ni"

And I was like , JENIS APA ?!

So I said , "Tak tau uh you," and press on the lift button.

When the lift arrived , he pulled me from the lift and drag me back to the staircase .

I really wanted to go . My hands was still in his hands , I pull myself away .

That was when I saw his right hand . . . BLOOD . . .

I pulled him toward me and hugged him .

I cried .

I apologised .

I need this kind of man who will fight for me when I want to leave .

I need this kind of man who are so patient towards me .

But still , I have to change myself to be with this man .

B/c if this kind of thing happens again , I don't think I will be given another chance .

I LOVE YOU A LOT , HILMAN .

I'm terribly sorry .