I can't handle myself anymore .
Maybe this is it ? I really do not know what to do now . All I can do now is hope that one day you realise how much I love you . I couldn't forgive you because I have a reason to do so . You've been apologising for the SAME mistake over and over again . And I'm stupid anough to forgive you every single time . But now , I can't . No more . When I ask you to leave me for a week , I hear from your voice that you really do not want it . I've known you for too long to know you well enough . But I need to leave you . I have to . I'm not going to contact you for a week . I'll get back to you by next Thursday . But that depends on you . I'm not asking for much . I'm just asking for your real love . For that Hilman that I once really fall in love with . That Hilman who I can see in his eyes that he is sincere .