♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

You don't want to read this blog because it will hurt. This is where I can just release my hidden emotion from you . Everything that really hurt me , I wrote everything in here . You don't want to read because you don't care . You don't care how I feel . You don't care how it hurt me when you do stuffs I don't like . You don't care about me . You only know how YOU feel and never mine . Do what you want . I don't care too !

Thanks for taking care of me . You've been there for me for anything . Even you are there to hurt me too . :( I still cannot get over it .

This time is the last time I ever trying to believe you . You said : Kalau tak trust , balik sudah . Sure , I don't trust you anymore . Everytime I trusted you , you did it again . IF I AM NEVER GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, WHY DON'T YOU LEAVE ME ?!!! You don't want me to leave you . But what are you trying to show me now ? I da sabar banyak you . You said : Whenever I da nak serious , diorang tinggalkan I . Dengan I you tak pernah serious ! You say you won't take drugs again . In the next week you took it again . You say you da tak contact pompan lagi . I gaduh with that stupid fucking maid because of you ! Never promise me anything if you can't do it . You pinjam maid tu sampai $500 . You even promise her you tak akan main2kan dia lagi . FUCK YOU ! This time you really hurt me to the MAX ! ! !

W e h a v e b e e n t o g e t h e r f o r 2 y e a r s , 6 m o n t h s , a n d 5 d a y s . O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n m o n t h s - 3 0 m o n t h s O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n w e e k s - 1 2 9 w e e k s O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n d a y s - 9 0 5 d a y s O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n h o u r s - 2 1 7 2 0 h o u r s O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n m i n u t e s - 1 3 0 3 2 0 0 m i n u t e s O u r t o g e t h e r n e s s i n s e c o n d s - 7 8 1 9 2 0 0 0 s e c o n d s W e ' v e s e e n 1 l e a p y e a r s .

Yesterday was at Hilman's house . Logging in my Hotmail, MSN and lastly Facebook . Hilman was okay while looking through my facebook . But after that . Hilman : Gi kenal2 dengan laki2 kat Facebook kau tu uh ! Me : You takmo uat I sot eh ! I was bad mood after that . I umm-ed and uh-ed Hilman everytime he tell or ask me something . : Kau bingit eh ? Shutting up . And again . : EH kau bingit eh ? *shaking my legs Again , shutting up . : Kau nak balik ? Same thing . : Kau nak balik kan ? Okay okay . Stared at each other till he reached the kitchen . # Void Deck . : Sekarang kau bingit dengan aku ni kenape ? Same thing , I shut up . : Sekarang kau bingit dengan aku ni kenape ?! *shouting : Bobal baik2 uh ! : Okay , kenape you bingit ? : You should know . : Pasal Facebook tuh ?! Eh , da terang2 aku main2 je kan ! He added, : And kau da tau aku memang tak suka matair aku ada facebook semua kan ?! Kau sama macam si pukimak tu uh ! Kau nak balik, pi balik uh ! Mak dia peh puki ! He walked ...

I messaged Hilman using Web sms . Me : Hello ! Hilman : Hello . You , tinggal dengan I boleh ? I da takle hidup tanpa you dengan I . : You minang I besok uh . : I nak you kalau I da kaya . : Sekarang pun I da dengan you . : I suami you sekarang and sampai mati kan ? Kan ? : Suami yang belum sah . : You !!! Busted seh ! You da tak sayang I ? : Sayang la . Tapi memang betul pe . You memang suami I yang belum sah ! # How can I say this loud and clear ? I LOVE YOU HILMAN !