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He's gone . For awhile , maybe . I'm just getting ready for the real final goodbye . Final phone call . (29 Oct, Thursday , 10:30PM) Me: Can we talk ? Him: I penat and ngantok . I tidur dulu kay ? : NO! We. Need. To. Talk! : Pasal ape, sayang ? : What do you want to do with your life right now ? : I tak tahu . Yang I tahu I nak dengan you aje . : No, no, no. Have you ever think about your future ? : I tak tahu la you . I nak dengan you and kahwin dengan you till the end . : I'm not talking about this . I'm serious . Your kerja ? : I tak main2, you . I masih kerja pe . : Permanent job ? : I nga pikirkan la . Yang penting I sayangkan you . : No , you don't . Have you ever listen to me ? Did you ever stop the things that I told you to ? : I tahu I jahat . Walaupun I jahat , I tetap sayangkan you . You gi tidur okay ? Da malam . : I belum makan . : You takmo make yourself suffer just because of me . : You care about this . But have you ever care about how I feel ? How m...

I asked for break up yesterday . And I totally regret . When the time you hung up the phone on me after you said we are officially over , My heart sank greatly . Like there is nothing in my life anymore . It was really felt like my soul are gone . It was just a short time and I felt like that . What if you don't want me back yesterday ? I'm gone somewhere and I'm going to kill myself too . I'm sorry . And I will never ask that ever again . I love you sayang . I love you alot ! I love you too muccccch !

Everything just change too much yesterday . I feel like I'm with someone else . I want this to stay . Please . Hilman : Ini semua kuasa tuhan . Maybe ni semua balasan dia terhadap I Me : Balasan ??? Hilman : I banyak lukakan hati manusia . Tapi dengan you I lemah . Sayang I terhadap you kuat . I love you .

I am crying because I am too angry ! I am crying not because I am scared of losing you . My heart can't take it already . I asked for break upS but you did not reply . Even when I asked in call , you change to other topic . You know I am angry and want to break up but still you messaged me , 'Iloveyou' I thought you've change , but I thought wrong . SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING ! This love of ours, it's so sad that it makes me laugh today . Hard to say , but it looks like the end ! Time's up Promise this time I'm getting off Better we slam the door shut ! Didn't you know if nothing changes then nothing changes ! LOVE IS LIKE A TRAIN . WE WAIT FOR IT EVEN WHEN IT'S GONE .

Biar I terus terang kay . I don't want a guy who can't support me in the future . I don't want a guy who is a drug addict . I don't want a guy who drink . But love make me blind . My love for you makes me not to care and accept for who you are . Do you know why I behave like that just now ? It's because I want you to change . If you love me , I know you will want to make me happy right ? I know your life is not happy , you said so yourself . It means I never make you happy . Do you need time to relax without me ? I can leave you alone for awhile you know . Tell me if you need it . *The message I sent to him . Read from the right page . This was just the day before we quarrel . I gave him 4 questions and he must answer it truthfully . It all just happen so quickly . S Y G Sayang Yang Gila .