♥ LoveLane LoveStory ♥

DAY 17 nari mimpi ngeri sehh eu! eu slamatkn i dari i bnoh diri. i sayangg eu so much!!! haha :) pegi skola mcm biase. then after skool ade business course. i jadi MARKETING BOSS. haiis! smua sabo i! sper sehh!!! lpas tuu straight home! I RINDU EU!!!

DAY 16 gi skola petang todae. ingt22 nk skip. tapi ngn sape kn? mcm biase kt skola. blajar, blajar, blajar... after skool gi lepak ngn hazirah. then kwn laki hazirah smua dtg. i tk lyn dorang okae! sumpah! dorang pon tk layan i haha. i baleqq umah around 7.30 boringg la eu.. I RINDU EU!

DAY 15 macam biasa je gi skool. then scott, my fren kater kwn dier nk jumpe i. dier bdak luar. then i kater i tk nk. then dier kater he will be waiting for me outside skool. then i macam WHAT THE FUCK seh! after skool. i ngn hazirah decided nk pegi uma hazirah la. then bler kluar, i completely forget scott ngn kwn dier kt luar. scott panggil i. then dier kater tht kwn dier da pratikn i da lame. dier nk number i. i tk bagi! sumpah! then he say dier antar i smpai busstop la. then i say tk pyh. thx alot but no! then scott kater la yang i sombong. then i pekik kat dier. "SCOTT COME ON LARH! EU NOE IM ATTACHED RIGHT!" "I LOVE CINO AND THTS IT LA!" then kwn dier kater, "jual mahal sehh" then i drag hazirah pegi la. i cry otw to rumah hazirah. i miss eu so so much! then bler i nk baleq, i take 854 long bus. bdak2 ite kat blakang panggil2 i. i ignore. then diorang kater, "pompan bwk bad pink tu sombong seh! ade number tk?" i then dngr lagu from my psp. m...

DAY 14 da 2 weeks i kehilangn eu. i miss eu so so much! nari i pegi skola. pagi2 my father da bising! i tu la ni la. i nk tgk musical dngn cikgu pon tkle! eu, i nid eu so much!!! i nk eu kt sni ngn i!!! its the same mcm dulu eu. my parents tk bobal ngn i lagi. only blog ni je la i bole bbl wif. I RINDU EU! CEPAT KLUAR EU!

DAY 13 mondae. kat skola. mcm biase eu. still crying bout eu. after skool ade course. quite boriin luhhs. baleq at 6.30 i naek bus nmpk name kiter eu. i nangis again... I RINDU EU!

DAY 12 haiis. eu. tk ya tanye i uat pe. its sundae eu. i tk kluar pon! boring se eu. still crying bout eu. miss eu! I RINDU EU!

DAY 11 eu. i tk le lupakn eu. please kluar cpt sikit la eu! i love eu and i miss eu so much! eu, i benci la dengan my dad. i tdo pelok gmbr eu tau. then my father amik gmbr eu. then dier cmpk! i tros terbangun se! i gadoh ngn my dad. see how much i love eu? i love eu too much to love my dad. I RINDU EU!

DAY 1 - DAY 10 i miss you so much sayangg... i cry everytime i pikir tentang eu. i tkle stop crying la eu. Bangun tdo nangis, dlm bus nangis, kat skola nangis, kat uma nangis and nk tdo nangis. 24 hours nangis je! i tk nk eu msok lagii. da la eu... stop it lahh. pargi keje je la laen kali... i am not having fun here tau! JANGAN UAT I MCM GNI LAGI LUHHS. 40 hari lama tau... Tapii i tetap akn tunggu eu. im sorry i da start smoking. i tk nk secret2 ngn eu. i promise myself after eu da kluar i akn stop! i rather smoke than cutting myself. i realli2 stress about eu. URGH! WHY MUST EU MASUK! and eu, tk mau lpskn i klao eu da kluar. i macam da bruba bnyk se eu. Tapi klau i ngn eu, i comfirm eu tkkn nmpk i bruba. 30 more days aru eu kluar. haiis. VALENTINE'S DAY tk dpt celebrate. 9 MONTHS ANIVERSARY tk dpt celebrate. 10 MONTHS ANIVERSARY tk dpt celebrate sedih tau i. eu, i tawu eu tk trust i tapi satu laki pon i tk contact.! i pikirkn eu je okae! I MISS EU SO MUCH MUHAMMAD HILMAN!

DAY 9 eu. i mimpi psl eu lagi seh eu. but this time i ngn eu da kahwin! haha. suke i. wake up, kat dlm toilet nangis psl eu. haiis... smpai skola then i saw a guy pkai baju CD. then i cry. i miss eu too much sayangg. i will wait for eu sayangg. IRINDUEU!

DAY 8 hello sayanggku! eu. i really miss eu... todae i uat test chemistry. then i tertdo. dlm 15 mins, i bole mimpi psl eu seh!. bile i bngon, i tros nangis. eu i realli miss eu! kpale i bole mletup sehh kat sni. eu, i miss ur voice, i miss our quarrels, i miss ur bed, i miss ur BEETLE! haha. eu, im still waiting for eu no matter wat! I RINDU EU!

DAY 7 eu... i mimpi sedih se eu. i mimpi i da nk mati and eu nangis smpai da tk le nangis. i just want tht to happen in real lyfe. bcoz. at least i noe eu love me. eu. for lyke one week i suffer without eu. satu laki pon i tk contact. trust me eu. i love eu. and i will never hurt eu. i just want eu right here beside me. be mine foreva la eu. i love eu MUHAMMAD HILMAN BIN ABDUL LATIF! I RINDU EU!!!

DAY 6 boringg se eu. eu. since the day eu masok, i slalu mimpi psl eu. narii i mimpi eu ngn i kt dlm jail. romance2. haha eu. i cuba nk try to do sumthin to make me not to cry psl eu. tapi susah eu. everytime i ingt psl eu, i nangis. till now, im still waiting for eu. ini eu kater i akn cari laki laen? sorrie la eu. eu got the wrong gurl. if i love tht sumone. i will love him till death. okae maybe zaim i love dier tapi uat ape nk pk org yang da tk syg i. and eu... dun ever ever leave me!. i still love eu my sayangg... I RINDU EU!

DAY 5 haiis. mimpi psl eu lagi. and i mimpi eu da kluar. and kter enjoy kat skola i. haha. wake up, nangis la ape lagi. then pegi tuition from 10am-6pm. lame sehh!. haiis... at least i uat benda baek dari buruk kn? otw baleqq uma, i nangis kt bus. why? psl i ingt psl eu la ape lagi?!!! TODAE OUR 9 MONTHS ANIVERSARY! i just cant stop thinking bout eu sygg. kluar cpt pleeeeeeeeeeease! I RINDU EU!

DAY 4 pegi skola lmbt nari. i teringt nk gi umah eu. tapi eu kt dlm... i nangis for awhile thinking bout eu. smpai skola kne lari 5 rounds. cikgu nearly confiscate necklace "C" and bracelet "CINO". i told them i akn simpan. smpai class smua bbl psl rockfest. diorang tanye whether i bwk eu tk. then i nangis again. i go home alone... thinkingg psl eu... what eu doin now, eu da mkn blom, eu saket tk, eu penat tk and whether eu miss i ke tk. i miss eu so much sayang!. I NEED EU!

DAY 3 tdo dengn picture eu agy. mimpi psl eu ngn i kt rooftop. i miss eu so much! todae valentine's day. alone with no one. kt skola smua org suro jgn sedih2. still cry bcoz i tk le celebrate ngn eu. haiis. apsl idop nk kne mcm nii sehh. i miss eu so much seh. but i tkle uat ape2. nothin much happen todae. straight go home. I RINDU EU!

eu. i didnt do anything much since eu masok. i kat dalam bilik hugging your photo, crying. i miss eu too much sayangg! i nk eu kluar sekarang juga! i everyday sembahyang and doa for eu. hoping tht eu kat dalam tk susah sangat. and i doa2kn eu tk akan lupakan i bile eu da kluar. i miss eu sayangg. i mimpi psl eu slalu sehh eu. i tk le have fun without eu kt sini dengan i. im not strong klao eu tk de. i rase mcm half of me da tk de eu. im just waiting for 21 march. lama pon i maseh bole tunggu. klao eu maseh ingtkn i, klao tk uat pe i tunggu. but wateva it is i will still wait. eu mataer i seh eu. i tk akan tinggalkn eu when eu susah. remember that eu say in one msg: "eventhough im not beside eu right now, my soul will always be with eu." now i give that msg back to eu sayangg. eu masok. i feel like i pon masok seh eu. i kat luar. feeling so lonely/sad/hurt. mcm i ngan eu break gito. feel like killing myself. but NO! eu will be out later. and i will be waiting for eu. SEE YOU W...

DAY 2 bangun at around 6.30. just psl i termimpi psl eu. and eu give me the adress of ur lock up place. but haha, i lupa. tdo balek. and bangun at around 9. tros gi mandi. and cry bout eu in the toilet. haiss. after mandi siap2 for skool. my parents smua diam je when i got out of the house. cry in the bus. bcoz i nmpk our name on the back seat. bile tron bus. no one is there to follow me to skool. so pegi sorang la. bile smpai skola everyone asked whether im okae onot. still crying but say im fine. nazeefah blanja me fries. and the whole day still thinking bout eu. the rest of the day was boring. i kat skola decorate class sorang2. sunyi sngt and makes me remind of eu lagi. i cry alone dlm class. tomoro da valentine's day and eu tkde. IRINDUEU!

DAY 1 i pegii skola rase very worried. in bus i nangis. i just hope eu will get at least onli 15 days. turun bus, cari ira for her hp then call eu. i dengar ur voice, i felt happy. after flag raising ceremony, i asked for ira's hp lagi. i call eu and hear ur voice again. i feel relax. after english class, i call eu. eu angkt again. eu waiting for the news. i da doa2 eu dpt light punishment. after maths class, i call eu. eu kater to call eu back later. i said okae after eu hang up. the next CALLS, eu didnt even pick up. but ur hp is still on. so i thaught eu nga bbl ngn ur officer luhs. during literature class. i got ur message tht says... "Jaga diri baik2 sygku.. i akn rindu u.. i duduk dlm 40 ari..i syg u" i nangis like hell hearing that. the last call i got from eu is after maths class. and i will never hear from eu for the next 40 days. my friends pujuk i, i cannot take it. i nangis tersedu-sedu. everyone hug me. and tell me to be strong. but i cant eu. i nangis smpai ...

eu. eu really going in... gosh!. if its really 30 days. i akn tetap tunggu eu. trust me when i say that. but when eu kluar, tolong jgn lupakan i. eu, i akn rindu eu so much! i tk akn cari laki laen. i PROMISE! i da ade laki yang terlalu sygkn i, uat pe nk cari laki laen... I MISS EU! I LOVE EU!

eu. I will still love eu eventhough eu da laen. eu start to hang up the phone faster than before. eu da change eu. not me. im trying to change for the best. but eu are changing to the worst. eu acted like eu don't love me when eu actually love me. right? why cant eu just show me eu loved me? It izint that hard right? eu. i will never leave eu. kter da tk le jumpe each other too much. and im just afraid eu cari pompan laen. i love eu sayangg i really do. dont let me caught eu with other gurl. i will give up my life when eu give up on me. i told eu that many times. i still feel eu love me. that is why im not going yesterdae. iloveeu!

todae i got to go out. i told him that i will see him. but then he pentingkn mak dier. dulu tk mcm nii sehh. eu slalu pentingkn ii dulu. what happened eu?! i noe family come first. but eu. i slalu pentingkn eu dulu sehh. eu da brubah eu. i tawu. one day eu will leave me. im just not ready for that day! PLEASE EU. I NEED EU! JANGAN EVER TINGGALKN I!

last night he told me one fuckingg bad news! hes been charge and hes goiin in for 10 days. iim really gonna miss him! iloveyousayang! iim just sad tht i cant celebrate valetines day with eu. can eu just concerntrate on ur werk more than me. i dun mind... now eu are goiin in. what should i do outside? im alone eu. i need eu!. i dun need anyone else but eu. i will be waiting for eu. iloveeusomuchHilman.

haiis. hes changingg too much now. last night he mrh2 tk tentu psl. then he say "da larh ii tk nk gdoh la". at night i called him. and he say, "im sorry kae eu, i da tkle percaye anyone anymore" he even means me. but no trust no love. then he say, "klao eu rase eu tkle hidup ngn i tanpa trust, eu lpaskn i je uh, i le terima". I WONT LPASKAN DIER LA! haiis!!!. the only person that i have now is him. only him. if hes gone, i rather be gone. ILOVEHIIM.

ii cuba have fun with my family. tapi im not havingg fun without eu around. kadang i rase mcm nk just run away with eu. i just tk nk eu get into trouble. we are stuck and cannot go anywhere together anymore. i miss our old times. its all my fault, i know. everything is because of me!. i wanna be ur permenant gurll. ukan pompan laen but me. i know i cant marry eu. but we can try. i tido i mimpi psl eu. i mkn teringt2kn eu. whateva i uat, eu mesti ade kt fikiran i. am i too much? imagine klao eu break up ngan i. i cannot take it and just pegi eu. i tk nk suffer just because the guy ii love da tk syg i lagii. but i know tht will not happen. we will always be together. no one can seperate us. tapi allah bole se eu. haiiss.

feeling more confident now. i know he love me and he will never let me go. he will never find anymore gurls. i trust him so much. BITCHES just cant get him anymore. our love are locked and we have thrown away the keys. only god could find the keys for other gurls. i just hope not. ciqano.♥